The Stages of Heartbreak and Grief of Who I Once Was

forty three: the i love you

in a drunken haze
i asked you how much you liked me
your sober words stumbled like that of mine
as you spoke the words that could sober me up
"I love you this... I mean I like you this much"
drunken giggles filled your ears
as i tested the waters before me
asking you in that moment with newfound confidence
"Do you love me?"
if you had felt the influence of alcohol
you mightve said yes quicker
instead of teasing my heart strings as you said
"I might be in love with you"
within minutes
the might changed to definitely
as i watched your eyes fill with hope of a forever type of love
i told you i wanted to be sober
when i admitted that i loved you
because i wanted to remember this moment
until the day i die
so i could tell our future kids
just how their parents fell in love that day in May
you waited moments
teasing me with words like
"In love"
"Maybe"
"Definitely"
"Obsessed"
before asking me
"Are you sober now?"
the rest is history as our love story began
in a drunken haze in my living room
the movie not mattering
just the sound of our hearts beating for each other
and our thoughts loud enough to wake the small town
as we knew in that moment
in our heads
that this was our forever just beginning