𝐌𝐘 𝟒𝟎 𝐃𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍 - 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐎.

Her POV

All my life, my mom has always given me everything that I have wanted.

Whenever I wanted a doll, a bag, an accessory, she'd always give it to me without me needing to plead or cry.

Because of that, I'm used to getting everything that I want without a doubt.

But despite everything, the only thing that I couldn't have was my father.

In my years of existence, I only saw him twice. The first one was when he came to our house to talk to my mom, and the second one was when he came to my 8th birthday.

Noong bata pa ako, I craved for my father's love, but after years of longing, it finally stopped.

It stopped when I heard their converstion on my 8th birthday.

"Hindi ka na ba talaga magpapakaama sa anak mo?" galit na tanong ni mama. He remained silent and his expression is blank. "Fernand, kailangan ng anak mo ng isang ama. Kahit hindi ka na bumalik sa akin basta maging isang ama ka lang sa anak mo," nagmamakaawang usal ni mama sa kaniya sabay hawak sa kaniyang kamay.

Agad niyang inalis ang kamay ni mama sa pagkakahawak sa kaniya. "No, I don't see her as my daughter. I didn't even want her to be born. If you weren't so stubborn, I might have—" hindi natapos ni papa ang kaniyang sasabihin nang bigla siyang sinampal ni mama.

"Hayop ka!" galit na galit na usal ni mama, kasabay no'n ay ang pagtulo ng kaniyang luha.

The 8 year old me silently cried, feeling the ache in my heart as I heard my father say those cruel words.

He didn't want me.

Me being born wasn't a part of his plans.

The only thing he provided us was our financial needs. Other than that, we're just strangers to him.

Simula noon ay hindi na ako humangad na makaramdam ng pagmamahal ng isang ama. Sapat na sa akin ang pagmamahal ng isang ina, kung kaya ay lumaki ako bilang isang mabuting anak na hindi pinapasakit ang ulo ng isang ina.

"Here's your lunch!" masigla kong sabi kay Finn at saka nilapag ang rice at latik na kalabasa sa kaniyang harap. Kita ko ang pag-iba ng ekspresyon niya sa nakita.

Palihim akong napangiti dahil doon.

I faked a sad expression and said, "Ayaw mo?" Kita kong nag-panic siya dahil sa sinabi ko, at agad na umiling. "Hindi, hindi! Gusto ko," he said, completely flustered. Agad naman akong ngumiti dahil sa sinabi niya. "Okay! Then, let's eat."

Seeing him like this makes me happy, especially when he pushes his self fo eat foods that he doesn't like just for me. I knew that Finn doesn't like to eat this kind of food. Healthy foods, fruits, vegetables. And sometimes, i's fun teasing him whenever I have the chance to.

Before we even became friends, palagi ko siyang napapansin sa klase. Palagi siyang tahimik na nakikinig sa teacher na nasa harap, minsan ay nagbabasa lang ng lessons namin, at minsan ay tumitingin lang sa kawalan.

He was the silent type, and one that doesn't socialize. A silent and smart kind of guy. He's also handsome, and is one of the top in our class.

The type of guy that I have always wanted.

Kaya palagi ko siyang napapansin sa klase namin, at madalas ko noon napansin na namumutla siya at minsan umaalis na sa klase at hindi na bumabalik.

And one day, I mustered up the courage when I saw him becoming pale and leaving the room.

I am forever glad that I did that.

Dahil doon, napalapit kami sa isa't isa, at doon ko siya nakilala ng husto. He's fun to be with, and what I like about him the most is his sincerity, and his subtle expressions.