enemies to what..? :3

im tired 😪 (Vent)

(Warning:Me.)

I feel like im the worst daughter, friend, best friend, BFF, lover, girlfriend, boyfriend, drawer, talker, writer, person, human, role player, girl, boy, chef, styler.

I think that im going to lose, Jack, Luis, Alexander, all of my friends, my dad, my mom, my brother, my sister, myself, my mind, my words.

I wish I would die, be gone, h-ng myself, kill myself, let go of people, hit myself, cry everyday.

I'm scared to lose jack I feel like he's uncomfortable with me call him amor and etc. I feel he's gonna break up with me anytime soon im so ugly, fat, annoying, cry baby, soft, cold hearted, over thinker. Jack deserves better. His life would be better if he never met me. He probably loves someone else.
Other girls are so beautiful and perfect but me I'm just ugly and soft.
Everyone is better than me.

I'm tired of being a bitch, pussy, scary cat, soft, crybaby, annoying, a person, useless, girl, boy, hiding my feeling.

Who would love me?..
I'm useless.
I'm a freak.
I'm a monster.
I'm weird.
I'm sorry.
Jack doesn't deserves a monster like me. He deserves better..

The thoughts that say I deserve to bleed.. :/