The Broken Heart (Business Series 1)✔️

Chapter 18

Confession

Mabilis na nilisan ko ang library. Nagmamadali akong naglalakad sa hallway nakasalubong ko pa ang iilan sa myembro ng organization na sinalihan ko pero hindi ko na nagawang bumati pa. I couldn't calm myself while waiting vehicles to stop on the road because I'm gonna cross. The St. Anthony is just near our campus that's why I'm just walking. Nanginginig ang mga binti ko habang tumatakbo papasok sa loob ng hospital.

"Where's the room of Silas Henley Abella miss?" I immediately ask the receptionist on the reception when I enter inside while catching my breath.

Nakita ko na pinasadahan nito ako ng tingin bago sumagot. She look in her mid 30's she's wearing a white cloth so I conclude she is a nurse but I'm not sure though. Not all wearing a white clothes are nurse.

"Kaano-ano ka niya ba?" Her eyebrows rised up.

Napatigil ako sa kan'yang tanong hindi ko alam kung ano ang isasagot sa kan'ya. Dahil ako mismo ay hindi ko rin alam kung ano nga ba kami ni Silas. We look like a couple but in reality we really not.

"A f-friend." I hesitate to answer.

She gave me another look before answering my question earlier. She lowered her gazed.

"Room 18." She uttered.

"Thank you."

I left immediately after thanking her. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko habang naglalakad papunta sa room ni Silas. At nanunuot ang kaba sa aking kalamnan. I just hope he's fine. Napatigil ako nang marating ko na ang room 18 na sinasabi ng babae kanina. I remain in front of the door seemed afraid of what I would see when I opened it. I heaved a deep sigh before I decided to open it.

The white room welcome my sight and there is a bed in the middle of the room where Silas is lying. Napatikip ako sa bibig nang makita ang kalagayan niya. There's an apparatus hanging on his body. Nakapikit ang dalawang mata nito na tila nasa mahimbing na pagkakatulog. Walang tao sa silid maliban sa kan'ya.

I gently closed the door and went to his bed. Merong nakadikit na head bandage sa kan'yang ulo. I seated on the wooden chair beside the bed. Napatitig ako sa kan'yang maamong mukha. A tear escaped my eyes while looking at his state. I held his resting hand on the bed.

"M-Magpagaling ka Silas please... I promise I won't hurt you anymore. Magpagaling ka lang..." Napayuko ako habang pinapalis ang mga luhang pumapatak sa aking mga mata.

Even his hand was wet because of my tears. I caress gently his hand. Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang ginagawa ko iyon. Ipinagsalikop ko ang kamay naming dalawa. Now my feelings are clearer. I like him so much. Hindi naman ako malulungkot at iiyak ng ganito kung hindi ko siya gusto.

I like him I'm just in denial because I am afraid where this feelings will take me. Kaya pinaniwala ko na lamang ang sarili na hindi ko siya gusto pero ang totoo ay gustong-gusto ko siya. Masyado kasing mataas ang kalagayan ng pamilya niya. Natatakot ako na hindi ako tanggapin ng pamilya niya lalo na nang makita at makilala ko ang mga ito.

I kept our hands interwined for a few minutes. Ano man ang magiging kahihinatnan ng naramdaman kong ito ay tatangapin ko na lang. I will not hold back anymore. I will not stop my feelings to him. Masyado na akong pagod para gawin pa iyon lalo na't makita siya kalagayang ito.

I won't think about what others have to say if they know about us. Tama na ang ilang beses pagtutulak ko kay Silas papalayo. He didn't deserve all of it. He deserve to be loved. He deserve the pure love. 

After I visited him in the hospital I go back to the campus because I have still classes. I was busy writing on my yellow paper when Allen called my name. Napatingin ako sa gawi nito. He's smiling when our eyes met that made my forehead furrowed.