The Broken Heart (Business Series 1)✔️

Chapter 27

Wedding

The past few days was a messed. I don't even know how I survived those hopeless nights without k!lling myself! I can't even sleep and eat foods. Para bang bigla na lamang gumuho ang aking mundo. At hindi alam kung paano babangon. Para akong nakakulong sa madilim at malamig na rehas na tila ba nangangapa.

Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang kahihinatnan ng buhay ko. Na animo'y batang naliligaw sa sa isang lugar na hindi pamilyar. Hindi alam kung saan tutungo.

Walang araw na lumipas na hindi ako umiiyak sa loob ng silid. My body became weak as the days passed due to the emptiness I am feeling. Not only because I didn't eat for days but because of the feelings I am suffering. I feel like I am punishing myself for the things I've made.

Pinaparusahan ko ang sarili sa mga bagay na ako naman mismo ang gumawa. But how can I blame myself though? I don't have any choices. How I wish I have. Then, I'm not torturing myself here in the first place. If I have other choices. This the best decision for everyone. Really? I doubt it. If it is, then why I am in this state? Enough Eris!

Napahagulhol ako sa loob ng madilim na kwarto. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses akong umiyak ngayong araw. Namumugto na at namumula ang aking mga mata dahil sa labis na pag-iyak. I am embracing my body while sitting on the cold floor. My tears kept falling from my eyes. Nanginginig at namamanhid ang aking katawan habang niyayakap ang sarili.

I heard my phone vibrate from the bed beside me. I shifted my eyes to the phone that were ringing. It show up Allen's name in the screen. Walang kagana-gana ko iyong kinuha sa kama sabay sagot.

"Hello?" sa namamaos kong boses.

Batid sa aking boses na galing lang iyon sa pag-iyak. I heard his heavy sigh from the other line. Na tila ba tinatantiya ang sasabihin.

"Hey! Sama ka? We're having a party at my cousin's house. Baka gusto mong sumama?" Pilit niyang pinapasigla ang kan'yang tono kahit halata naman ang pag-aalala nito.

"Sorry, Allen. I won't join. Bye." I didn't let him to speak and ended the call.

I know he just want to comfort me but I really can't afford to go out right now. Baka bigla na lamang akong umiyak sa gitna ng selebrasyon. I don't want to ruin his cousin's party. At ayaw ko rin makaperwisyo pa ng ibang tao sa kalagayan ko ngayon.

I put my phone back to the bed where it was earlier and tried to stand from the floor I am sitting but my head hurts so much and my eyes become blurry. Napahawak ako sa aking ulo habang dumadaing sa sobrang sakit. It feels like someone were smashing it with a hard objects. Before I could stand I felt my body falling on the cold floor. Then, darkness enveloped my sight.

I woke up in the hospital and wearing a white hospital gown. Ramdam ko pa rin ang matinding sakit ng aking ulo at likod. Naririnig ko ang pag-uusap ng mga tao sa loob bago tuluyang iminulat ang aking mga mata. Agad nanlaki ang aking mga mata ng makita ang isang pamilyar na babae sa aking harapan. Hindi ko akalain na naririto siya.

The tears from her eyes were visible while looking at me. Her eyes were full of sadness and agony. That's the first time I saw her in that kind of expression. I suddenly avoided her hands when she tried to touch my face that made her burst in tears in front of me. Tita and Dad left the room leaving with this woman.

"A-An-naak... S-Sorry..."

Hindi ko alam kung ano nga ba ang aking maramdaman. My mother who abandoned me when I'm just a little kid is here right in front of my face crying. Dapat din ba akong maiyak? But why? Wala akong maramdaman kung ano sa kundi kundi galit. Galit na matagal na panahon kung kinimkim.