A Poem
If only it was so easy
If only it was so nice
If only it was so helpful
If only it didn't make me feel like iceA spike in the legs I'm running on
A needle between each toe
A knife running down my back
That knife oh is it slowThe one thing I want in life
Is to talk to mine
Have a mirror in front of me
And let it out without a cryI don't want to feel like I'm weak
But what am I
Am I what I think I am
Will I be that, no matter what I tryIf only you knew
How much I've been running
If only I could talk
Without feeling like I'm fallingI feel like I'm sabotaging
Like a torn rope holding a weight
The weight of my thoughts
When sleeping doesn't feel greatI've always been running
Trying to find who I was
Turning my back on everyone
Leaving myself and feeling lostMy house doesn't feel like home
Surrounded by great people nonetheless
But never will I find peace
Unless it's in the arms of my blessedMy lady of love
The one I'm with
If only I could tell you
How you pulled me on the gridI still don't know who I am
So I throw myself into the field
Wanting to use my body for the better
Because my mind isn't a shieldA soul for souls
A bullet for the bad
Am I any better
If all I do is saidThe world seems dim
All but one light in my eyes
Everything is based on words
And words are based on liesA star in the night sky
Nothing's ever brighter
Than the person that made me feel
A little lighterWith her I can fly
With her I can dream
With her I can sleep
With her I can feelI haven't had it hard
Except for my own thoughts
Wanting to prove to others
That I too could be a starI have people to make proud
A promise to make you smile
A promise I try to keep
At least for a little whileUntil I give out
Give up and my legs shake
Until I start questioning
No, I can't waitYou have to run with me
Run alongside or in front
Show me the way
Where life can be foundMy home is quite far
And I want to return
But if she leaves
I'm not sure in what I'd turnWhere is my love
Where is my heart
Where are my legs
If not in a pool of thoughtsI sound very depressed
I don't think I am
I come out of bed every day
I don't think I amMy loneliness was cured
Until it wasn't
Coming home and leaving
Running again and getting lostWas I meant to keep on going
Or will there be a stop to this
Will my thoughts stop thinking
Or will that be something I'll missCan I go without thinking
How silent that would be
A thoughtless mind in an empty shell
Drained with love and just one story
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