Unsavable

.19.

He was quiet. So quiet that I could almost hear the rush of instant regret flood my veins as I said those words.

I wish I had not said anything but this man before me had managed to tear open a hole in my defenses leaving me vulnerable and afraid. I felt so angry with myself for letting that happen.

Almost raped.

Almost... But not actually raped.

Was I that fucking pathetic? I was fine. Nothing happened yet I have allowed myself to kick up a storm and react like it is the worst possible thing ever. I let it affect me and allowed myself to seep into a dark corner pretending like I have to lick the wounds that aren't actually there.

There are plenty of others who suffer far greater problems and issues which they are forced to deal with yet here I am cowering and hiding in my apartment like the biggest victim under the sun.

It was embarrassing.

It was honestly so pitiful and disgraceful.

I am so fucking pathetic.

"Andrea!" My thoughts were cut off by strong arms wrapping around me and pulling me to a shoulder, "It's okay." His gentle voice soothed.

I did not even know that I had been crying until he said those words. In desperation not to loose this warmth, I held onto him and burried my face into the crook of his neck.

I tried everything I could to reign in my tears but my attempts were futile. William seemed unbothered and comforted me until I calmed down.

"Whoever did this to you will pay." I heard him seethe silently under his breath.

"It is okay." I shut my eyes tightly still holding onto him my tears now beginning to cease, "Nothing happened."

"It almost did and look what it's done to you." He sounded perplexed and angered as he gently grabbed my shoulders pushing me back slightly.

I could feel the cold air sting at my wet cheeks and burn at my eyes as he starred so deeply into them. His gaze searched mine with such intense power that I was to nervous to even blink.

"I will be okay," I forced myself to pull my eyes away, "I overreacted. I apologise."

"No." His tone was cold and final.

"It was honestly no big deal." I bit my bottom lip and moved away from him still not meeting his eyes.

"If it was not such a big deal as you claim, you would not be in this state Andrea." I grabbed both my hands, "Look at what it has done to you..."

I looked down ashamed. "I think you should go."

"No."

"But-"

"My answer still remains the same. I won't be leaving until I can confirm that you are alright."

I glanced up at him. My eyes searching his only to be met with the fierceness in his gaze.

"Then stay. I do not care." I turned my head away wiping my tears. This man scared me with how easily he got through my defenses.

"Andrea-" He was interrupted by a knock on the front door.

I got up before he could stop me desperate to find an escape from the strange emotions that William brought about in me.

It was as if all my previous fears from the past few days had left me since William had arrived and without thinking I swung the door open only to be met face to face with the next big thing that I did not quite know how to deal with.