For Him

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After Jungkook told me about Taehyung and Nancy's past
He went back downstairs
But I didn't

I slowly made my way to Taehyung and my shared bedroom
I knock on the already slightly open door
He was just laying on the bed
Staring up at the ceiling
I waited for the response, but I didn't get any

"May I come in" I say in a low tone
I don't know how and why, but the anger I had for him some time ago has vanished now
Or maybe little bit of it is still here

Still nothing came for him
With a sigh I open the door even more, enough for me to get in
I walk inside and stop when I reach the bed, where he is laying at

I sit on one corner
I don't know what is happening to me,
It is like my hand has a brain of it's own
Because I just placed my hand on forehead and am caressing it right now

"You alright ?" I ask even though I know that he is not

But he just remained silent while looking up
I wonder what is going on inside of him

"The least you can do is respond to me" I say as I get a bit irritated

"Can you please leave
I need space rightnow" that's what he said,
Here I am trying to comfort him even though I am mad at him and he wants me to leave

"Ofcourse you want me to leave" I say in a low tone as I can feel my eyes getting teary again

He finally turns to look at me and raises his one eyebrow questioningly
"What do you mean ?"

"Seriously Taehyung,
Do you even fucking remember what you did last night
You had hurt me so much and still here I am by your side,
Despite all the hurtful things you said to me
I am trying to talk to you, comfort you and you just kept ignoring me
And when you finally open your mouth to speak, you ask me to leave" I shout with tears running down my face

"Jennie, please I am not in mood for any of this right now" he says turning his head back to look at the ceiling again
Like the tears on my face do not bother him,
He doesn't care
He doesn't care about me

I stand up from the bed "Mood ?
I our relationship some kind of time pass for you
That you will deal with it depending on your mood" I say actually being surprised by his behavior

He chuckles "Our relationship was definitely not by our choice"

"Ofcourse it wasn't by your choice,
Because the girl of your choice is sitting downstairs
You definitely would like me to leave, now that Nancy is here
The only person you have ever loved and cared for,
Who am I to you ?
Nothing, just burden you have to bear with for the sake of your fucking reputation
What are you doing here huh ?
Why don't you go downstairs and take Nancy in your arms" I shout as my back rests again the wall, I slowly slide down and hug my knees

He sits up straight on the bed
He looks shocked because he had no idea that I know about this

"How do you know ?" he says standing up

"Why does that even matter to you ?" I question right back

"You want me to leave, now that Nancy is here
Don't you ?" I mumble looking down

"Jennie I never said that" he says, moving a hand through his hair

"But that's what you want
Isn't it ?" I say without looking at him

"Can you just stop assuming things on your own" he said taking a step closer to me but then took a step back

"You know what I am tired of all this" he says as he picks up the car keys which were placed on the bed side after that he walks out
He is walking out on me again, just like he did last night

I thought that he will come to me and take me in his embrace and tell me that Nancy is nothing to him and that he has moved on from his past
But I was expecting too much from him
He didn't even disagree when I said that he still likes Nancy

I don't know why this is bothering me so much
It's not like I love him
Both of us were forced to get married by our families
And if now Nancy comes back to his life
Why should I care about it
It is his life after all

Or maybe it is bothering me so much because
I feel something for him
And am getting jealous by Nancy
Because I like Tae

"Ugh....what is wrong with me
How can I- how can I like someone like him" I say being mad at my own self
But he is my husband
I am the one he is married too, not Nancy

Maybe I like him, but he doesn't
Maybe one day he will like me too, but what if he doesn't ?
What if he actually gets back with Nancy and leaves me ?
Will he give me a divorce and send me back to my parents ?

"Jennie you are thinking too much
None of this is going to happen" I tell myself to calm me down

But one thing I decide to keep in my mind is that I won't let Taehyung oppress me because we are married
I will try to stay strong

So this was end of this chapter
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