LIFE OF ARWA(ON HOLD)

. 23

The next morning, i wanted to go to the hospital but mama insisted i get some sleep because I didn't sleep at all

I was still adamant but gave up when umma personally called me and asked me to stay home, rest, then come later

"Tace he's much better, so get some rest. By 12 seh mu fita." I nodded and smiled at mama before walking into my room.

I knew i wasn't going to be able to sleep so i took another shower and dressed in a casual flay atampa before laying down on the bed

The duvet swallowed me whole and as usual, my thoughts drifted to sa'ad

If i was feeling like this, i wonder how his family are coping

I turned on my phone and dialed fatima's number

"Hello arwa."

Her voice was still hoarse, meaning she probably didn't stop crying

"Fati ya kike?"

"Im fine arwa, what of you?"

"Im good. How is he feeling?"

"Umma and ya amira chased me home to rest, but they said he's better."

I love saad so much, but i cant compare myself to how she's feeling

She's his blood sister

"Try not to overthink fati. He'll get better in shaa Allah."

"Ameen. Im also supposed to be calming you down. I know you're very worried."

"Its fine. Take of yourself. Zamu hadu when i come later."

"You too, Allah ya kaimu."

"Ameen, bye."

I sighed and snuggled myself more

Im sure almost two hours passed before i heard a knock on my door

I shouted a 'come in' and the door opened but no one said anything

I peeped my head out of the duvet just to see adnan standing outside the door

"Assalamualaikum." He walked inside and closed the door behind him

I cleared my throat and answered his salam

He squatted by the edge of the bed where I could clearly see him while i didn't move from my position

I was fully dressed, i just didn't have the energy of changing positions

I was beginning to zone out when he spoke with a small smile

"Ya kike?"

"Miserable."

I didn't know why i decided to be honest with him after lying to everyone that i was fine

"I also dont expect you to be fine. You're human, and you have a heart, its normal."

I didn't know what to respond to him, thankfully he continued speaking

"The hard part is accepting whatever happens and being patient. Leave everything a hannun Allah."

I had a feeling he had more to say but he kept quiet

"I am being patient. I know Allah will take care of everything."

He gave me a pitiful smile

"Kiyi hakuri arwa."

I don't know why at that moment my heart fell to my stomach, and my heartbeat increased

I didn't want to ask him anything and he wasn't saying anything too