your love never is for me | billie eilish

4 | harsh words

Billie's pov:

Abby's birthday was coming up in a week and i was stressing myself out with planning

I wanna make this very special for her since she's turning 18. Two days after she's leaving for Cancun to spend her and olivia's birthdays.

I really wanted to come, but i have to promote a lot for my album and start planning my tour. I'm very overwhelmed, but all I'm worried about is getting all her gifts on time

"Why are you getting her so much stuff" sev said

"Because she's my best friend, sev?" i rolled my eyes

"All that stuff for a friend? I can't wait till my birthday." he chuckled

I never even thought about his birthday once

"She loves the color pink, you think this is cute for her" i showed him a pj set

"I don't care what you're getting her billie" he said

I huffed

"Way to be a dickhead for no reason" i said quietly

"You know how I feel about her, yet you're still friends with her, even after the bullshit she pulled last monday."

"You're the one who started calling her weird sev."

"Bro i can't do this if you're just gonna take her side all the time"

I just sighed. Seven always wants all my attention, and even though I have other friends like zoe and drew, I think he sees abby as a threat since I'm the closest to her. I love her, but I just hate when he gets mad at me, I've thought about distancing myself from her for a little just haven't got the balls to do it yet.

"Do you guys want something to eat?" my mom asked

"No thanks mom"

"What about you brandon?"

"Nah" he said without looking up from his phone

-

"Are you excited for Cancun" I asked abby over facetime

"You don't even know, I bought so many bathing suits"

"Give me a try on haul" i said

"Girl you just tryna see my ass" she laughed

"And?"

"Fine i will"

I watched as she went into the camera with a black bathing suit, she looked so good

Abby has always the most perfect body, with the most toned legs and arms

And a huge-

Let me stop

"Is that the one you're gonna post on your insta?"

"Yes, it's my favorite one"

"Did I mention that chantel is coming too? I convinced her"

"Oh, the girl you model with" I asked

"Yes, she's so funny we honestly became close so quick"

"Mmm" I hummed

I'm not a jealous friend, I was never jealous over olivia because they've been friends for how long. I never properly met chantel so I'm just worried she wants to get close with abby for the wrong reasons.

But I can't control who she's friends with

"I really wish you were coming b" she said as she laid down in her bed