your love never is for me | billie eilish

7 | boy toy

Billie's pov:

One month later...

Tears streamed down my face as I got off the phone with him

How could i be so stupid?

I should've listened to abeline

"Did you see what abeline posted?" zoe asked

"No, i don't want to be on my phone right now." i stated

"Billie you knew something like this was going to happen, he's a piece of shit"

"Oh my God, does no one have anything else to say me besides that stupid ass fucking sentence" i snapped

"He's this, he's that, you should've left him" i mocked

"No fucking shit, I know i'm stupid i don't need a whole crowd of people reminding me"

"Calm down, you're not stupid, you were in love and no one should judge you for that" finneas said as he put my head on his shoulder

"I'm so tired, i'm so mentally tired of this shit bro" i cried

"I know i know"

"Then i have tour soon, how am i even supposed to hold myself together" i said

"We could always postpone it bil" finneas stated

"No, I would never do that to them. I'm gonna get over it" i wiped my nose

"He admitted to everything, he said he only dated me for clout, i was a kid that didn't know shit, all this bullshit. How can someone be like that"

"You're worth so much and we're all here for you. You might feel alone, but you're not" zoe said as she rubbed my leg

"I need to go to abby's" i got up and grabbed my keys

-

The whole way there my eyes hurt from crying, there's no way to put into words how i felt. I felt so vulnerable, and the way i let myself get treated like that.

It's all my fault.

love<3

Come open the door please

Okay?

I saw her beautiful face as she opened the door

"What's- oh no love what happened" she said concerned

"He broke up with me abeline" i couldn't help but cry

"Oh my gosh come in"

"I'm so sorry abby, i should've listened to you, you probably think i'm so stupid. I'm so-"

"Billie stop, don't say those things about yourself, look at me" she held my face

"Whatever he did to you- doesn't define the person you are"

"You're so amazing, and people fucking love you. You're successful, you're surrounded by great people too."

"You're not disappointed in me?" i asked

"No baby i'm not. He brainwashed you and the last thing you should be sad about is a low life like him."

She made me crack a smile

The only person who could bring me up when i felt like dying.

"Don't cry, okay? I wanna see your pretty smile" she rubbed my cheek

My face got closer to hers and something was telling me to do it

I wanted to kiss her.

Our lips got closer.