your love never is for me | billie eilish

11 | regret

Abeline's pov:

my eyes fluttered opened, trying to adjust to the light from the huge ass windows in my room. i felt myself shiver as i was under the covers, but only in a bra and panties

"you're finally awake" i heard billie say while she was on her phone. "sleeping with you makes me sleep so much longer" i said putting my head on her chest

"are you sure it's that or-" she dragged. "stop you're gonna make me get flashbacks" i giggled

i got up to go brush my teeth and so i could get ready for the gym. "where are you going" billie whined.

"girl i have to brush my teeth, you should too" i laughed. "i already did actually" she sassed. once i was done, i walked to the full body mirror to see how my body was looking. i've been trying to train extra hard to get more lean

"i can see you looking you know" i said to her as she looked at my ass. "okay and it's hard not to" she shrugged

"go put some clothes on before you tempt me" she cover her eyes. i went over to her sitting on the bed-and straddled her lap. "what do you have to do today?" i asked

"i have a fitting for the grammy's in like- 2 hours" she said looking at the time on her phone. she licked her lips elevator eyeing my body. "hey" i picked up her chin "eyes are up here"

"what about you" she smiled. "i have to go to the gym right now, let me go get ready im getting side tracked" i said as i got off her

"wait-" she pulled my arm back. "no kiss or anything" she pouted. i smiled and kissed her lips a few times. one kiss wouldn't be enough she's so addicting.

i started picking out my gym outfit and laid it on the bed. my legs were already killing me from last night, but i have to work through it omg.

"why do you have to go right now" she exclaimed. "we can have a workout right here right now" she smirked making me blush

"as much as i want to-" i smiled "your girl gotta pay bills and build this body too"

i grabbed my duffel after putting on socks. "are you staying here?" i asked. "yea, i'll make your bed once i'm leaving don't worry" she said

"okay b, if you wanna eat anything i have stuff downstairs or you can order something" i told her and she nodded

i headed out the door and my thoughts were overloading. i had sex with my best friend. i was so confused. i always liked billie and i knew that, but i just got cheated on and- oh my gosh i never even technically broke up with joey.

"fuck" i mumbled to myself. i started up the car and decided to drive to his apartment. he was in college, but he didn't stay in a dorm.

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my hand was shaking as i pressed the buttons on the elevator. i was too angry and hurt to even text him, plus his new little girlfriend could tell him the whole story

i knocked on the door and who i was greeted by didn't  surprise me.

"oh- hey abeline" chantel taunted. "i don't even care that you're in here i just need to talk to joey" i said bluntly walking past her

"abby- look i can explain" joey started. "i don't want your bullshit explanation, i came to clarify that we're over" i said

"you couldn't at least go for someone i'm not friends with" i asked annoyed. "look she came on to me-" he said but was cut off

"joey we both wanted to so don't even say i was the one who started it" chantel said. "look i don't give a fuck who came onto who-" i threw my hands in the air