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I can't tell if I am being selfish or not.
My birthday is coming up in a month, and my parents wanted a big celebration for me. We discussed it already, and they're already planning on inviting a lot of my family to come without my 'permission'. I don't want it, at all. Not in the slightest. I fking hate being the centre of the attention when I don't intend for it.
What I envisioned was a very laid back hang out with my small friend group. I want everyone to have an enjoyable time without feeling like they have to dress up nicely or present themselves in a way that they don't want to.
But that's exactly what my parents are not planning. I understand that they care, but they are justifying this by saying using the excuse that I need to step outside of my comfort zone. I understand and agree, but at a time like this when it is 'my birthday', of course I want a say in what I want.
They called me stubborn and pessimistic... and now I'm here crying over my own birth-day like it's a bad day I now have to go through.
At this point I don't want to have a birthday. I never liked it in the first place.
—Yuna
BINABASA MO ANG
the Lost & Unfound : my diary
RandomA book about my search for my 'home' in this world, my cries for help and comfort, seeking for hope/happiness, my vents about absolutely everything... and if you've come across this, hi! My name is Yuna :)
