𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙾𝚋𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝙼𝚘𝚋𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛

18

My eyes couldn't meet his even when he opened my door for me to get out of the car.

Mi shame lakka dawg mi just wah go lay down and cry

"Thank you," I said before walking away.

Reign bought me this house the second time we came to Jamaica so I could see my mother.

She had took her injections and is okay but she says she wants to stay there.

Home has too many sad stories for her to remember and I understand.

"Aiden let me give you bath—"

"No,"

Oh

"Aiden," Knox said Aiden held his head down.

"She's going to give me a bath so you leave when I'm gone," he whispered and Knox picked him up.

"Mi say mi nah lef. Mi eva tell you lie,"

"No," he said before looking at me.

"Look pan mi,"

He looked back at Knox and Knox spoke again.

"When you mada say something to you neva mek mi hear you said no, nnn or ooo," he said

He nods and Ghost placed him down.

"Gwaan go bade and fawud back," he said and Aiden came towards me.

Both Knox and Austin went into the living room area as they looked around.

"Come Aiden," I said before walking away.

He followed me to a room and I gave him a bath. It was a good thing I hadn't threw away anything for him.

I went to my room and opened the closet that was a mess. I grabbed a pj set that were more than able to fit him now and started get him dress.

"Mommy,"

"Yes Aiden," I said as I placed his shirt on.

"Are you angry at me?"

"No," I said before adjusting his clothes.

He didn't say anything until I was finished dressing him.

"Thank you," he said and I nod.

"Gwaan now," I said and he ran out without another word.

The door closes and I sat on the bed. Allowing my tears to fall as the ache in my chest got worse.

I can never do anything right

And it's so hard

We all make mistakes but what did I ever do for this life to treat me this way.

I started sobbing all over again and I had to cover my mouth so I wouldn't make a sound.

For some reason this hurt more, silencing my cries when I wanted to sink into the ground.