Beginnings and Endings

Envelope

(AN: TRIGGER WARNING, mentions of suicidal thoughts)

Alice opened the envelope and pulled out two minimalist wallets, y'know, the ones cops could use to show their ID and badge, holding two pieces of psychic paper in it, a bracelet that was made out of old watches that didn't work anymore, one that was multiple colored pieces of string following the trans flag braided to into a diamond type pattern along with a note

If you have this letter it probably means you're leaving, or Alice was snooping because she got bored but here's some psychic paper if you two ever have a little adventure and need it, and I'll visit, I don't know how soon it will be because if you had to leave because of a regeneration then the TARDIS might not immediately be able to get there, but I will never forget about you guys, and I'm sure you guys know which bracelet belongs to who, so, take care of yourselves, especially you Alice, you're pretty reckless some times, I love you guys, you'll never leave my heart

Love, the Doctor

Alice chuckled softly as she read how the doctor had wrote that Alice was probably snooping, wiping a tear from her eyes, she then put the bracelet on and watched as Freddie put his on, Alice sat the note and physic paper on the table then sighed, she really didn't feel like unpacking so she did a little flick with her fingers and made her bags suddenly becoming empty

"Oi! That's not fair" Freddie whined softly

"Oh quit whining, I was gonna do yours next" she did the same with his bags then sat down with a sigh as Freddie sat beside her, rubbing his neck gently, Alice rubbed her chest and sighed again but this time with a little bit of pain

"You still have that pain from your fight with Evelyn?" he looked at her with worry

"I'm fine, just-" she though for a moment "Yea" she knew there was no point in lying because she knew Freddie would know she was lying

"God I wish I could make it go away" he sighed, looking down at his hands

"You know you don't have to have every answer, right?" she looked at him, a sad look on her face

"Yes I do, it's what- it's what my brain is for" his voice slightly raised a bit and his accent slipping back to his thick Scottish one causing Alice to look at him with furrowed brows

"Freddie, you don't need to know everything, I didn't even know that could happen" she spoke gently
"Yes I do Alisa! It's what HYDRA made brain for and I- When I can't figure something out I can't help someone and their death is on me!" he shouted, standing up to look at her with glossy eyes

"Wait HYDRA-" she cut herself, confusion evident in her eyes, she didn't even want to know any of the horrors HYDRA could of done to him

"Just- It'd be so much fucking easier if none of that ever happened! If I didn't have to figure out what type of person I am! If my mind didn't have to work so goddamn quickly!" he shouted, through a plastic cup that was left on the table at the wall

Alice flinched softly and watched as he sat down, crossing his arms over his knees, rubbing the bridge of his nose with two fingers "Freddie I-"

"It'd be a lot easier if I just ended it all, no transphobia, no worrying about not knowing a problem" he mumbled

Alice didn't fully understand all of what he said but she definitely knew what he was talking about "Freddie don't- don't talk like that, please" her voice had a small tremor breaking her voice "I can't lose you too"

"Why not? It's true isn't it" he didn't look at her, not even through his eyebrows

"Freddie, please don't-" her voice wavered a bit more

He looked up at her with a small smile forming on his lips "Come on, you know I wouldn't leave you"

Alice smiled a little and sat on the floor "Good, because I'd burn down the world if I lost you"

Freddie chuckled, he thought for a moment before springing forward and tackling Alice to the ground, she laughed for a minute, it was a raspy laugh, one of her most genuine laughs in a while "I would never leave my sister" he smiled as he sat up beside her, and as she sat up he pulled her into a hug "But you could get some sleep, you look tired as hell"