Wrongfully Mates [MxM]

Chapter 26

I felt hollow.

It's been days since both Mia and Reed left, and I almost felt as if I couldn't get up.

I was both physically and mentally exhausted.

It took a few moments for me to pull myself back on my feet, nobody had come to visit me for days, not that I particularly cared.

Almost like a doll, or a dead thing, I couldn't feel much, I felt slow and depressed.

I had isolated myself from everyone, the people who cared for me most. The people I loved.

I remained by myself, but it wasn't enough. Maybe part of my problem was I couldn't make up my mind, and I continued to second guess everything. But nothing made sense to me lately, and I couldn't adapt fast enough.

Opening the door to my house, outside looked bleak. Cold air immediately hit me, and it seemed as if nobody stirred. I strained to pick up any sound of movement, picking up only hushed voices in the distance.

I closed the door behind me, I guess I'll have to move out sometime soon, since it feels too big to live in alone.

My feet dragged on the street as I walked, the old shoes I wore began to tear, so I started walking normally. Even if that took more energy.

I couldn't help but wonder what would happen if I were to leave. The cold started to bother me.

It never bothered me before, why start now?

I slowed down as I approached a building. I looked up slightly, a bigger frown formed on my face.

This is the pack house.

I let out a huff as I began to turn around.

"Ryan!"

I held I a sigh as I turned around to face my father, his face was stoic, and his eyes didn't give anything away.

"I was wondering how you were. Let's go," my father grabbed my arm and pulled began to pull me back towards the mansion, I frowned.

"Go where?" I felt pissed off. We didn't leage off on a good note, now he was acting like we were all okay again.

"We were just discussing things.." my father mumbled, I guess he had realized how awkward the situation was, and how I wasn't completely over everything.

"So.... hows your side?" He asked slowly, as if he was testing the waters. I frowned again.

"You couldn't asked a few days ago, why would it be bad now?" I grumbled, acting as if the wound didn't still leave me both physical and mental anguish.

We stepped inside the pack house and I wondered if my day could get any worse. Almost as if it was a Ryan hate club.

Along with my father, stood my mother, Bernie, Lexi, Charles, and David.

They all stood slightly stiff, and nobody made eye contact with me.

My mother suddenly spoke, "Ryan! My poor baby, I'm so sorry you got hurt," she quickly approached me and reached for my face, but I took a step back.

I don't recall my mother every doing anything too harsh to me personally. But her not standing up for me this entire time had me feeling bitter.

"I'm fine." I replied curtly, David, the beta, and Lexi's father, spoke second.

"Honestly, we all feel a little ashamed for assuming things about you, but we just wanted to let you know that we apologize." David flashed a smile, but I didn't reciprocate.

Lexi still didn't meet my eye, but Charles, the alpha, broke the silence again.

"We just think you've had great luck so far, your parents put in a good word for you y'know, you should be happy your parents care about you," I frowned, he continued.

"I think we've stalled long enough, it's been quiet for a few days, but why should we let that thing go?"

I let out a huff, I felt my nails dig into my skin, "What do you want? What are you talking about?"

"That beast of course?" Charles almost looked confused, "What else would we mean?"

I let out a small growl, "You want to bait me you mean?"

David looked shocked, "Hey! He didn't say that, we just wanted you to come with us, all of us, we're trying to apologize you know, we thought this could help you realize how important you are to us!"

My gaze dropped to the floor, "Follow you into death? Yeah right.."

"Ryan." My dad snapped, "Whats wrong with you? We all care about you, but you just wanna complain all the time. You've survived all the encounters, why wouldn't you use that to help your own pack?"

I scowled, "Yeah, sure, whatever." I grumbled, I turned around and left swiftly, "care my ass.." I snapped quietly to myself.

"We do care." A voice rang in my ears, I whipped around to face Bernie, who has not spoken the entire time, his sandy blond hair moved gently with the wind.

"Piss off." I snapped, I continued walking, but he followed anyway.

"I don't hate you y'know," Bernie started.

"Could've fooled me, to be honest." I mumbled.

"Well, put yourself in my shoes." Bernie snorted, "I've spent years listening to you drooling about Lexi, I liked her too, y'know, I just never said anything."

"Cool." I replied, honestly, at this point I couldn't remember why I had liked Lexi, she wasn't strong like Reed, or wasn't as attractive, as him.

As tall as him, she didn't smell like him, she didn't sound like him. Nothing about her made my heart race anymore. Maybe she wasn't what I had wanted.

"Honestly, I've always been a bit jealous, or maybe it was possession, I'm not sure. But I don't hate you Ryan, and I'm sure you don't hate me"

I didn't say anything, but sure, maybe I didn't hate Bernie.

He didn't mean anything to me anymore, what he said to me didn't make me sad, or angry, or want to run away and scream.

I just couldn't care about what he said anymore.

Suddenly his arm wrapped around my shoulder and he pulled me closer to him, "Just think about what they said though, they just want to make up everything to you. Then maybe everything can go back to normal, hm?"

And with that, Bernie walked away.

My eyes stayed frozen on the ground as I walked, I didn't feel normal.

If I ignored everything, could we go back?

I had doubts, I couldn't forget how everyone treated me, even if we were friends again, id always feel that small pang of betrayal in my heart.

I bent down and hid my head in my knees.

Ah I'm tired.