I Am Not A Sub! (Oh, Yes, You Are!) // Dom&Sub Universe - by YoonKeeri

23

"Before I met you, I had another sub."

Yoongi's eyes widened as he looked at Jin. "What? What do you mean?" he asked.

Jin sighed, his gaze fixed on Yoongi's face. "It's true," he said. "It's something I've never shared with anyone, but I think it's time you knew." He paused, gathering his thoughts before continuing.

"That sub was someone very special to me," he admitted, his expression softening with memories. "I loved him so much, and I believed he loved me in return. But I was wrong."

"He betrayed me," he continued, his voice full of bitterness. "He left without a word, without any explanation. I was devastated. I felt lost and abandoned, like I had been left with nothing."

"After a year, I found him with another dom, acting as if nothing had happened between us. It was like he had completely forgotten about me, about everything we shared. Seeing him like that, with someone else, it broke me."

"I loved him, you know," he continued. "I treated him with all the care and affection I could muster. But to see him with someone else, it felt like betrayal. It made me question everything, even my own worth."

He paused, remembering his past actions. "I felt like I was the problem," he confessed. "Maybe I was the one who didn't treat him well enough. Maybe I could have done something differently to make him stay." He looked at Yoongi, his eyes reflecting the pain.

Jin continued with regret. "After that, I became quite possessive. I was afraid of losing someone again, of being left behind. So, when I met you, I tried to be cautious. I didn't want to invest too much, to avoid getting hurt again." He sighed, his gaze fixed on Yoongi. "But you... you're different. You made me feel things I hadn't felt in a long time. And you made me even more possessive than I was before."

His expression softened, his eyes reflecting sincerity. "And I'm sorry if I've been too possessive or overbearing at some times. It's just... I was afraid."

"And after that, I promised myself that I wouldn't let anyone else in, wouldn't let anyone hurt me like that again. But then you came into my life, Yoongi. You broke down my walls without even realizing it. And I couldn't help but fall for you."

"I know it's not fair to compare you to my past. But you're not him. You're your own person, and I love you for who you are." Jin's gaze was full of affection.

"I know you're still being my sub because of the challenge, because of the experiment. And I understand that. But...I can't help but hope that maybe, just maybe..you will still stay with me."

He paused, his eyes searching Yoongi's for any sign of understanding. "I just seriously don't know what's going to happen when you really solve the case. I don't know if you'll leave or if you'll stay. But I do know one thing. I care about you, Yoongi. More than I can put into words."

His voice then quivered slightly as he admitted, "The thing I fear most... is losing someone I love. I've already experienced the great loss once, and I don't think I could bear going through that again."

He looked down for a moment, gathering his thoughts before meeting Yoongi's gaze again. "You've become incredibly important to me. And so, please don't ever say things like you don't deserve to live or that you're alone. You have me, and I promise I'll always be here for you, no matter what. You're not alone, and I promise that you are so loved."

Yoongi looked at him with sad eyes, seeing the terrible past beyond the gentle smile Jin wore. "But.. what did you do to him after that?"

Jin hesitated for a moment before saying. "I... I let him go," he admitted quietly. "I couldn't bear to see him with someone else, but I knew I had to let him find his own happiness."

Yoongi's brows furrowed in concern. "And what happened after that? Did you ever hear from him again?"

Jin shook his head. "No, I never did. I guess he moved on with his life, just like I did."

There was a moment of silence between them as Yoongi processed everything.

"I'm sorry. I had no idea," Yoongi murmured softly.

Jin offered him a small smile. "Hey, you couldn't have known. But enough about me. Let's focus on you now. Since I've shared my secret, it's your turn," he said gently. "I know it's not easy to open up, but I'm here to listen, no matter what it is."

Yoongi shifted uncomfortably and he knew he couldn't hide any longer.

"I... I don't even know where to start," Yoongi admitted, his voice barely above a whisper.

"Yoongi, you've been strong for too long," Jin said softly. "But now it's time to let someone else take care of you. So, just share everything you want. I am all ears."

Yoongi shifted uncomfortably in his seat, his gaze drifting to the floor as he gathered his thoughts. "It's just that..being the eldest of my family and carrying the weight of the mafia king title," he began, "those two roles mean so much to me. I've always felt like I had to be strong, not just for myself, but for everyone else who depended on me."

He paused, taking a deep breath before continuing. "And the reason that I couldn't attend the government exam is because...

..that day, my parents died."

His words hung heavy in the air and his eyes glistened with unshed tears as he spoke.

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New thing unlocked :

What Jin's afraid of : Losing someone he loves.

Lollll I used up all of my drafts and updated them and now, just only one more left but imma post it tomorrow to make you all suffer 🤭

Also, how about we see a glimpse of a suprise I have for the next chapter.

It's some key letters for what might happen and what that chapter might have.

Key letters : D, K, P, H.

Like example : P - Punishment.

Oops. Already revealed one of it.

Well, find the others will be with those hints 🤭 see you all tomorrow!!! 💕