Monsters (Big Bang fanfiction)

Thursday May 7th 2015

I think I'm sick.

Not that I caught a virus or anything but I don't feel good. At all. I feel as if I were going to throw up any minute even though my stomach is completely empty. My hands are freezing and every little sound in the living-room makes my heart race as if it were trying to escape from my ribcage. Oh yeah, maybe this has something to do with the fact that I'm stuck. Maybe this has something to do with the fact that I've always been so naïve, so gullible, so delusional about being good and thus guaranteed a safe future and living happily ever after... Maybe because there's no need to deny my secret fear of Joseph any longer.

The two following days after the undersecretary's visit have been a living hell. Nobody would talk or walk in the halls. No more buzzing machines, no more perpetual brouhaha of small talk and scientific babble. Silence had invaded it all. People were sitting on their chair, either doing nothing or force themselves to work to not go mad with anxiety. Anytime the phone would ring, people would jump and rush at it to pick it up then hang off disappointingly. Still no news of the undersecretary. All eyes were also on the big boss' office. But Jo had locked himself up and hadn't come out except to let me bring him lunch. I was so worried I thought I needed to cheer him up somehow. So... one night, after I begged him all day to come back home in the evening, I went home earlier and left a note at the office saying I would be out for the night. Of course, it was just an alibi to prepare his surprise <3 !

When he arrived that evening like I had asked him to, I had been waiting in our bed comfortably, a couple of glasses and a bottle of his favorite wine on the night-table, the lights were dimmed and... well, let's say I was glad I had brought my favorite lingerie in my suitcase for that kind of emergency ;)

However, when I heard him come in and I called his name with my sexiest voice, when he saw me in our bed with his coat and his shoes still on, he didn't look even surprised. In fact, he just looked at me with a small smile on his face and, as he came closer to me, he embraced me into a bear hug, then took my head in his hands and gave me a big smooch on the lips.

"I have a surprise for you." he told me against my lips and gave me his warm, lovable smile.

I couldn't help but stare at him in disbelief. A surprise? For me? But I was the one supposed to surprise him! Plus he's never done that before! He then took out a bottle of champagne from his bag and poured it in the glasses I had already prepared.

"I know you've been waiting for it for a long time." he whispered in my ear.

He then handed me a glass and told me to close my eyes as he bent on his knees. I gasped and my heart skipped a beat. Could it be...? Was my Jo-Jo about to ask me...? This was probably his way to tell me that he wanted me by his side in the darkest of times! OMG YES! YES! YES! YEEEEES!! I was screaming in my head as I was already grinning with my eyes now closed. When Jo-Jo told me to open them again, he was not holding a ring but a letter in front of my face. I took it, confused and a little disappointed.

"Read it out loud." he said.

So I did. It was the answer from the Pentagon. Joseph rested his head on my knee like a little boy listening to his favorite bedtime story. In spite of the incident and a major refusal to support the project any longer, some generals were impressed by the boys' performances and a minority had voted to keep financing the development of the SB. They were ready to fight to be the first to have real super-soldiers in their army! However, they thought the product was advanced enough to be finalized in the US. Some of them had even called him in private and told him they were ready to settle an unofficial arrangement to have it right now. When they announced the prices they were ready to pay, Joseph told me he told them he could slow down the secondary effects by maybe selling them smaller dosages or cut it with other medicines just for a few months so in the meantime, the SB could still be secretly perfected in its pure form.