Monsters (Big Bang fanfiction)

Monday May 18th 2015

I'm watching you sleeping, Seunghyun. And it's the most beautiful sight in the world. Your chest lifting up and down gently, your soft messed up hair, your half opened lips looking so kissable, the little black eyelash resting on your cheekbone below your closed eye... I want this picture to remain in my retinas, like when you stare at the sun for too long. I wish we could stop time right here right now. I wish tomorrow would never come. I wish you could stay by my side forever. But if saving you implies to not see you again, or at least before a long, long time, even though I hate it, then I will let you go. But before that, I'll manage to make your sweet voice call my name again when you wake up. And I'll call yours as well.

Now we've passed half of our missions. There's only the three of us. I must say, today was particularly stressful.

This morning, I noticed Seungri was the first to be at the table, eating breakfast with Kwan and Mum as she seemed to be in deep conversation with him. He didn't look so well. When I arrived with Seunghyun and G-Dragon, they both stopped talking. Then, after we sat down and started eating, I caught Mum giving encouraging signs to Seungri to do something. After a while, he looked at her, then looked at us and took a deep breath.

"I don't want to be next." he declared and took his head in his hands. "I'm sorry. I know it should be me since we said GD must stay to keep an eye on us and Seunghyun and noona probably want to stay together... But I don't feel ready yet! I can't do this! Please don't let me be next!" he begged.

Then, there was a small silence.

"It's okay." Seunghyun suddenly said and got up. "I'll be next then."

When he said that, I instinctively took his hand and tried to make him sit down again and shut up. When GD caught a glimpse of that, he smirked at the three of us.

"Yah, I hope you're kidding me." he said to his hyung. "You don't intend to let noona all by herself yet, do you? Besides, you've been useless for too long so it's time you take some responsibility. I'll be next." 

"We can't let you do that after what you said yesterday!" Seunghyun exclaimed.

"Why not?" his dongsaeng asked. "Why should your argument be better than mine?"

"Because... because... I'm taller than you." His hyung sheepishly replied which made GD smile.

"Touché."

"Can you guys please sit back down?" Mum asked the boys in an annoyed, half-asleep tone. "I got up earlier to make tea and soup for everyone so just drink it before it gets cold!"

As for the maknae, he remained silent, looking guiltier than ever.

"Don't pull such a face, dongsaeng!" GD said and ruffled his hair. "You get to spend one more day with noona and noona's Mum. Isn't that awesome?"

Upset, Seungri pushed back his hyung's hands, looking angrily at him.

"Only noona and noona's mum get to touch my hair!" he said and fixed it with his own hands even though it didn't need to since it was too short to be arranged otherwise.

"You see? No need to feel guilty about leaving him." Seunghyun replied, looking at GD. "He'll be fine without any of us!" he added and pinched Seungri's cheek.

Although he was pretending to ignore them, I could tell, looking in Seungri's eyes, that he was refraining from biting both of his hyungs. That's a sign his mood was better ;P

Eventually, it was time for G-Dragon to become Kwon Jiyong again. So we drove to Jiyong's city, Suwon. As he had seen both of his dongsaengs do before him, when we went out of the car, he tried not to be taken by surprise by the waves of memories that overwhelmed him at the sight of the building. It looked poorer than the two previous ones. Some of its windows were broken, fixed with tape and plastic film and the walls were covered with obscene graffiti. As we approached it, Jiyong kept a slow pace, neither behind nor ahead of us, just staying by our side as if we were just taking a walk in the park. He kept his poker face on as well.