Ok, being an older sister... You kind of expect your younger sibling to pick up a few things from you... My brother is actually at the point that he is going to be copying my hairstyle. Yea, he is also starting to copy my style in clothing. Obviously, I don't mind...
However, I feel like I'm someone my friends look up to as well. I don't know if I've mentioned it before but I am the oldest out of my group of friends... Only by a month I should say, but in school that can be a big difference... However, I don't think that's the reason... But it could be...
Being older means I turn 18 first, which for those who don't know is the legal drinking age in Australia. Originally, The majority of my friends wanted to drink when they reached that age. I, personally, have made the decision to never drink because I grew up with my mum and dad drinking and I wasn't exactly a fan of the effects it had on them so I never found it appealing. Plus, I get addicted to things very easily and I really don't want alcohol to be one of those things. I have a bad enough memory as it is and don't want to lose anymore than I have to.
So when my friends first started talking about drinking, I simply said that I don't want to drink. They asked why and I said what I wrote above and they accepted my decision.
Which is all well and good, but weeks/months went by and some of my friends started to tell me that they have also made the decision to not drink, or at least not as soon as they turn 18. Of course, I was happy for them and I never pressured any of them to do the same as me or force my opinions onto them.
At first, I didn't think my opinion impacted them until I spoke with one of my youth group leaders (for those of you who don't know, youth group is like Church for teenagers and you have a few people who run it, known as the leaders). I was speaking with her and she asked about when I turn 18. I told her in as little as a couple of months and she offered to take me out for drinks for my birthday. Again, I simply told her that I'm never going to drink and, again, she asked why. I told her my reasoning and she nodded and told me "You know, People are going to respect you for that."
So it made me begin to question my influence on others. I never saw myself as much of a role model... I just live the way I feel most comfortable and say no to things that I dont personally think are beneficial for me. I dont typically 'preach' my opinion on topics like that, I just live my life the way I want to.
I never asked for people to 'follow in my footsteps' or to look up to me for advice and what not. I never expected to make an influence on anyone.
But it's nice to a certain degree. It lets me know that people actually notice me and listen to what I have to say.
To some extent, I feel like an older brother/sister to my friends online. I get questions regularly asking about wisdom and what not, as if I have all the answers.
I'm just like you, I dont know what the fuck I'm doing... The key is to look confident while doing it... being confident in yourself.
I've never been confident in anything... But the way I view things and dress are two things I am confident about.
I'm confident in who I am.
And I guess people look at that as something that's beautiful.... something that represents wisdom...
Now, you're probably all wondering why I linked Sia's song, Chandelier.... because I'm obsessed with her... This entry had literally nothing to do with her but... her voice is rad... And this music video is a work of art...
Good Day And Good Night
~Bash The Wise
