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It's been exactly three weeks since the guys left on tour since the incident I caused and I'm going insane without them
I haven't been answering Harry's texts or calls either. He's making me this emotional girl and I'm nothing like a girl
I'm walking on the dark streets, wrapping my arms around me keeping myself warm.
The girls have been pissing me off alot lately making me want to just break everything. I walk into the pharmacy but felt someone in my way
" fuck off Luke" I spat moving away from him into the pharmac
He smirks big pushing me onto the floor.
"Hey!" Ashton yells from behind walking to us pushing luke away from me.
I try getting up and ran back home before he could get close again. I breath out once I get to the door.
I walk in with my head down not wanting anyone's attention but I heard someone angrily walk to me .
" where the hell have you been Alexandra" Sophia says calmly but she's obviously pissed
" none of your business" I spat at her and saw Eleanor walk up behind her
" what's the matter with you Alex, what's gotten into to you lately" she asks surprised
They stand next to each other both shocked. " I said nothing" I hiss
Eleanor tried coming next to me to hug me but I push her , her falling hard on the ground
They both gasp and Sophia is quickly to her side , trying to help her. I widen my eyes
" oh my god I'm. I'm sorry" I say running up to Harry's room locking the door. I'm in so much trouble .
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I got multiple angry texts from Liam and Louis, of course the girls have told them.
I don't care what they're gonna do to me. I can't feel pain anymore or feel happiness, anything at all honestly
Where did I go wrong with everything. If only someone could listen to me instead of just screaming at me.
I got up and went in Harry's shower, stripping down looking at my body. I see nothing I like. All bruises and scars. Nothing sexy
I sigh stepping into the shower. After I finished I wrapped a towel Round myself and laid on Harry's bed
I woke up to several mumbles. I open my eyes remembering I'm still in the towel. I got up not looking at Harry louis or Liam.
I walk to Harry's closet picking out a shirt and letting the towel fall. All of them gasp and I continue ignoring them. The shirt covered up to half my thigh
I turn around and see Liam and Louis kind of angry.. I don't blame them.
"Alex you need help" Liam almost yells grabbing a hold on my arm.
" I'm fine" I say with no emotion
" no your anything but fine Alex! Things were better without you " He yells walking out
" I'm I'm sorry about what I did to Eleanor, I shouldn't have taken my anger on her.. I'm sorry louis" I say trying not to break
" it's alright love, I know you didn't mean to" he whispers kissing my forehead before walking out still looking angry
I walk to the bed and sit down trying to contain my tears in. I wipe my eyes with the palm of my hand looking over at Harry standing there
" babe come here" he says softly walking up to me opening his arms . He hugs me making me feel better
"they all hate me" I almost cry in his chest. He shakes his head
"Yeah they do!" I yell pulling away
"Alex no they don't! You just messed up that's all !" He says trying to calm me but that doesn't work
He takes me downstairs to Eleanor. I walk close to her and louis holds her close to him trying to protect her.. From me
Harry's beside me looking down at me to continue. I nod wiping my tear
" E , Eleanor I I'm so sorr sorry f fo for-" I couldn't even finish. I felt my breathing get shorter and everything started getting dark, I begin loosing my balance
I hear many yell my name out but I'm to quick to feel my self passing out.
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I wake up being surrounded by everyone. I sit up seeing ice packs around me.
" you had a panic attack" Liam breathe out. I haven't had one of those in years
" I'm sorry Alex, I know you didn't mean to" Eleanor says giving me a hug and louis smiles , going to take her home
" I'm sorry" I say to Liam and he nods sitting next to me. I turn facing him. He apologized for putting so much pressure on me
Niall hands me a bracelet...?
" I made it so you can look at it and think of happy stuff" he chuckles walking out.. Oh it's a charm bracelet
I smile to myself as Harry puts it on. I hug him never wanting to let go.
" I love you " I whisper in the crook of his neck. He kisses my cheek , carrying me to my room.
" I love you much more" he whispers laying me down before we both fell into a deep sleep.
But something inside me tells me not to believe his " I love you"..
