Harry and I are in his bedroom and he's sound asleep while his arms are wrapped around me and his head on my shoulders, keeping us close.
I feel guilty of what I did to louis. I hope he doesn't feel weird about it.. F.
I get up slowly and walk out of Harry's room and make my way down the stairs okay.. Until the last three steps
I fall and laugh at myself.
"Alex?" I hear louis voice and he laughs looking at me .
I look up at him.
" uh I fell" I say and he helps me up.
" I figured" he chuckles leading me into the kitchen handing me a cup of hot chocolate
" what are you doing up?" He asks standing about 3 feet away. I sit up on the counter and take a sip.
" what are you doing up" I ask back. He laughs setting his mug down.
"Things on my mind" he says
" same" I say. He picks me up and takes me into the lounge room and we sit on the couch.
Putting our mugs on the coffee table. i look at him who raises an eyebrow at me.
" what do you want to d0"
" what's wrong with you and Eleanor "
" I can't say. It's it's not something you'd like to hear" he says softly looking down at his fingers
" please louis. I tell you everything"
He takes his hand in mine and he looks like he's about to break..
" she left me Alex. The baby isn't mine , she never really loved me. She was just using me" he says before a tear escapes his eyes
" louis" I say shocked. I pull him into a hug and I can feel how broken he must be .
" she left me Alex. She's never coming back" he quietly sobs.
" h how do you know" I ask, still hugging him
" she left a fucking note." He says pulling away and I wipe his tears away for him.
" when did that happen "
" last week. That's why I didn't answer your question about her"
" Harry better realize how beautiful and amazing you are Alex. He shouldn't mistreat you" he says looking me in the eyes leaning in closer
Oh fuck
" if only I saw you first.. Oh the things I'd do to you" he says and before I knew it his lips were pressed against mine
I have enough strength to pull back widening my eyes with what I just did
" sorry " he sighs holding his face in his hands. I don't know what to do.
" um it's pretty late.. Shouldn't we you know .. Sleep?" I say nervously getting up
" no you go ahead." He says getting up and taking both our mugs
I kiss his cheek and he has a smile on.
" night" I say walking back upstairs to Harry's room. Now I'm feeling even more guilt knowing louis likes me.
I get back in bed and Harry's still asleep. I slip back into his arms and he wraps them around me again and brings his head closer to my neck
" where were you" he whispers deeply against my neck making me shiver.
" bathroom" I reply. He kisses my neck and feel him fall asleep again.
" love you" he whispers. I nod
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We're all on the kitchen table having breakfast.. Which hasn't happened.. Ever.
Harry keeps looking at louis and I , and I feel pressured. I look at Harry who weakly smiles
Liam gets up and goes to the bathroom , Niall zayn are eating and louis and Harry and I are like looking at eachother weirdly
" I know you and louis kissed" Harry said deeply and I widen my eyes and zayn chokes on his water
" Harry im-"
" it's fine.. I'm not mad. I've been a prick to you and I'm sorry." He chuckles taking a sip of water
" I know you like her a lot.. I won't do anything to jeopardize that hazz" louis says looking down at his plate
" woooowww" Niall laughs and zayn kicks his leg from under the table
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It's been two weeks and things are finally back to normal. Harry's not having his bi polar problems or getting jealous easily anymore.
I haven't been cutting, taking any pills, thinking bad thoughts or drinking and im actually feeling good about that.
Louis isn't all upset about the Eleanor thing but I wouldn't blame him. And zayn and Liam are more than happy with their girl friends
But Louis still kind of likes me but he doesn't dare make any move or anything that would get me upset.
Right now I'm in my room looking for a swim suit because no one wants to go swimming with Niall so I felt bad and agreed to go
" thanks Alex. But do you even know how to swim?" He chuckles as he sits on my bed
" well kinda, who cares. Do you want me to go or not" I say lookin for my swim suit
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•I haven't been getting as much reads or votes or comments as I used to. Which really sucks. Anyways, a few more chapters and the book is over! Woah, I started this book In June? !!!
