You and I

Chapter 11

I walked into school the next morning, beyond nervous. I didn't want to see Will after what we had done. Over the weekend, I had replayed myself on his bed, and him on top of me. Had I really done that? I couldn't believe it. If Will's mother hadn't of called us, who knows what would have happened.

The worse thing was that we were weren't even dating, and I didn't even know if he had feelings for me. The whole thing was just messed up. I sighed, and started to open the lock on my locker. I didn't even notice Cecily, as she walked up to me.

"Helloo? Tessa?" Cecily said.

"Oh hey, sorry Cecy." I mumbled.

"Bothered about the Will thing?" She raised an eyebrow.

I sighed. "How could I not? I don't even know how I'm supposed to face him now."

"You'll be fine, Tessa. Just try not to think about it." Cecily said.

"Alright." I said. "Let's go to class."

Cecily and I walked to our English classroom, and walked in and took our seats. Sophie was already there, and a few other people. I quickly explained to Sophie everything that had happened between Will and I.

"Oh my." She said when I was finished. "That's awkward. He took your bra off?"

"Ugh, don't even talk about it." I groaned.

"Tessa, I don't want make you even more nervous, but Will just walked in." Cecily said calmly.

At that, I almost fainted. Dear god, how was I going to do this? I felt him move closer to us, and I knew when he was standing right in front of me.

"Hello, Tessa." I didn't look up, but I knew that he was smirking.

"Hello, Will." I said nervously.

I then forcedly, looked up at him. He was smirking at me, his blue eyes dancing in amusement. The memory of his hands on my body, and him kissing me ran through my mind. I quickly looked away from him, and Will then sat down in front of me.

Gabriel, then walked into the room. He shot me a smile, and sat down in front of Cecily. I didn't even know if Gabriel and I were still fake dating. I was pretty much unsure of everything, right now.

About halfway into class, I started to feel very sick. I asked Mrs. Glass if I could go home. She said yes, and I went to the office and signed out. Thank god I had driven my own car today, and not gone with Nate. I still wasn't speaking to him.

I walked to my car, and drove home. As soon as I got home, I fell into my bed. I was so tired, and the stress from Will was making my head hurt. I soon fell asleep, still in my school clothes. It must have been an hour later, when I woke up to someone swearing.

I sat up, tiredly, and looked around. Will was shutting my bedroom window, while holding his knee. What was he doing here?

"Will? What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I came to see you." He said simply.

"Did you climb through my window?" I demanded.

"Yup and I hit my knee on the way up." Will winced.

"How did you even know, that this was my bedroom?" I asked.

He shrugged. "Lucky guess."

Will then came and sat on my bed beside me, and observed my room. He smiled when his eyes landed on the huge pile of books on my desk. He went over and picked one up.

"Are you skipping the rest of the day?" I asked him.

"Yup. My parents let Cecily and I skip one day a month, so here I am." Will said amusedly, while flipping through my book.

"I'm going to get changed into my pyjamas." I muttered.

"Okay." Will smirked, as he put the book down.

"Turn around." I said.

"What? It's nothing I haven't seen before." He smirked even more.

I blushed furiously. "Turn around, Will."

Laughing, he turned around. I then went to my closet and got out my pyjamas. I changed faster than I ever had before, and then I told Will he could turn back around. As soon as he saw me, he started to laugh.

"What?" I asked.

"Your pyjamas." He laughed.

I was wearing my fuzzy cloud pyjamas. Yes okay, they were quite childish, but they were comfortable. I scowled at Will.

"Shut up, Will." I said.

"Alright, I'm sorry." He laughed.

He came and sat down beside me on the bed. Will was close to me. Too close. I could smell his cologne, and I tried not faint. I felt the urge to kiss him, and I tried my best to push it away.

"What should we do now?" I said, and immediately regretted it after.

Will smirked. "I could think of something."

He then leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back softly, my hands going to his hair. Stop Tessa, I said to myself. You can't keep doing this.

"Will, I can't." I said while pulling away from him.

"You can't what?" He asked.

"Do this." I said, gesturing at him."I need to know what we are, first."

"What we are?" Will echoed.

"Well, yeah." I said. "I mean, you've kissed me several times now. What does that make us?"

"What do you mean?" He asked again.

I groaned, frustratedly. "Are we dating or not?"

Will paused, and then he suddenly started laughing. Why is he laughing? I thought to myself.

"Trust me, Tess, you don't want me." He said.

I just stared at him in shock. That wasn't what I had expected him to say.

"Besides, aren't you already dating Gabriel?" Will smirked.

"I-yes I am." I said.

"Well, there you go." He said. "Sorry Tessa, but I don't date."

"Why not?" I asked.

Will looked away from me. "Because I just can't."

I suddenly started to feel angry. "So you kiss me not once, but several times, and now your saying you don't date. So basically, your using me."

"Well, if you think about it a different it's--" Will started.

"What? What is it then, Will?" I snapped angrily. "Your using me, and don't even try to deny it. God, I can't believe I had been so stupid. Sophie was right about you, you are nothing but bad news." I spat.

"Well, your the one who is expecting too much! So what we kissed a few times? People do it all the time. I don't have to offer you marriage now, Tessa." Will rolled his eyes.

"No you don't. In fact, you don't even have to see me anymore, because I'm done with you." I fired back. "I will finish our English project with you, but after that I'm done."

Will looked surprised. "Tessa, I--"

"Get out, Will." I said coldly.

"What?" He asked, shocked.

"Get. Out." I said again.

He blinked, scowled, and walked out of my bedroom. I walked behind him, and opened the front door.

"Have fun with Gabriel." Will glared.

I put on my sweetest smile. "Oh I have."

His eyes widened. "Have you two?...."

Before I could stop myself I said. "Yup. Goodbye, Will."

I then slammed the door in his face. I went back up to my room, feeling very satisfied. The look on Will's face was priceless! I wish I had gotten a picture of it. I laid down on my bed and sighed I was done with Will Herondale. Completely done.