The Cruel Rejection (BoyXBoy)

Chapter 52 - Crazy Hormonal

KAI POV

One and half month later....

Just as I expected, once Ralph leaves my territory, we can't trace him. He really good at hide and seek games. The pack members scare to approach me now. I totally change three hundred degrees, acted like an asshole, mean, cold-heartedly and not caring like before. I acted as I totally forgot about my dear mate existences. In fact, I still search him relentlessly.

Honestly, first I think I can hate him for trample my heart like thrash, ignore my pleaded and begged. And I forbid anyone from talking about him. Our mate bond starting to crumble back, a throbbing pain stabs my heart every few hours and I have lightheaded sign too.

My mood surely worsens when I just wake up and frequently have a big appetite. I just avoid from seeing the pack doctor. I think death must more better than continue my life without Ralph by my side.

Two weeks after Ralph disappear; Trisha tried to seduce me back. Acted like a sweet girl just like I loved a long time ago. But sorry, my heart exclusively just for one person now. My icy personality makes anyone start avoiding me.

My kids are beginning to warm up to me. Surprising, Lucas the first who support me through the pain, check me every time, to make sure I eat all my meals and sleep as well. As a reliable son and brother. Luke a bit shy and motionless child, keeps everything inside him, but always stands in Lucas sight. Lucian, who is cheerful at surface more headache to handle.

He blames me for Ralph disappeared and hard to accept me as his father. Every night I would hear Lucas and Luke cooing him until he slept. Almost every night I just slide down in front their bedroom door. I can't bear to face their tearful sight, I'm failing as their father. How can I cooing them when my inside broken too?

Randall was almost one month not talking to me. He shut himself completely. Two weeks ago, all my kids began to accept me as their father. They joke and tell a story about themselves. Ian apologizes for his rude behaviour

Julia is living with my parents just like before. She shy to be around all my boys, even when they accept her as their little sister. I also introduce the triplet to my pack and announce Lucas to be their next Alpha. The pack accepts it without any resistance.

Zeus has back to his country one week after Ralph had delivered illogically news. The rogues issue is also almost settle when we never had any attack in this past week.

I resume my job back, but Rick takes over all my jobs related meeting with pack members because they apparently uncomfortable with my new personality. Did they expect me to always being gentle, caring, and cheerful after I lost my mate? Sorry, I'm just a normal werewolf who has depression issues once my mate disappear.

"Papa, it's time to take your meal and pills." Lucas and Luke come in my office with a tray of food. They put it on the coffee table; Luke grabs my hand and forces me to take food.

"Yes, yes... I'm here. Where Ian?" I asks when sips my orange juice.

"In games room. We're already eating." Lucas answer while flip some magazine

I eat all my food and drink my juices. Lucas and Luke smile to each other when they see me finishes my food. I refuse my parents to help me to take care those kids. They're mine and Ralph. I have lost many times with them; when they born, they first crawled, and their first shift. The most regret is I can't take even a second glance for my deceased daughter. I restraint my boiling blood.

"Papa, please take your medicine pills too." Luke hand me, my everyday pills.

"When I can stop taking those bitter pills?" I am whining to them. They burst into laughter when hear me whine. Mean kids