Second Chance

le finale*

When Nick finally looked at Selena he had no emotion on his face, nothing to let Selena know what was going on in his mind. He was just staring at her, blankly, and it scared the hell out of her. “Nick.” She whispered.

Nick just shook his head though, as if he wasn’t ready to talk to her just yet.

Selena was confused and scared. Nick was like an open book to her and now… Now he was closed off from her. She couldn’t tell whether he was angry or disappointed. “Nick, I’m pregnant.” Selena finally said aloud.

Nick tensed; his whole body stiffening as he turned around and faced Selena. “I know.” He rasped.

Selena watched as he turned his back on her once again; looking back at a test he had pulled from the bin with a tissue. As he turned his back on her she felt herself fall to the floor. She had lost Nick. She had lost him and she hated herself for not being more careful. Selena felt her heart slowly start to shatter and what she had eaten in the last few hours made an appearance. She rushed to the toilet and threw up until her body was retching up nothing but acid.

Nick awkwardly clambered to the floor in an attempt to hold her hair up as she retched and retched. He was having a child and that thought scared him. They had only known each other for a mere two months and now she was pregnant, carrying a child that would bind him to her for pretty much the rest of his life. When she had finished Nick finally spoke to her. “Sel, are you okay?” He asked and this time she could hear the emotion in his voice. He was worried for her.

“I’m fine.” Selena rasped as she flushed the toilet and then rinsed her mouth out with water. Now she was tired. Her whole body was exhausted, her mind as well. When she turned to him she sighed. “I’m sorry.” She whispered.

“How?” Nick asked as he put the toilet lid down and sat. His leg was aching, throbbing inside of the cast.

“I forgot to take the pill.” Selena admitted meekly as she stayed standing tiredly beside the sink. “You got into the accident and it slipped my mind. I’m so sorry.” Selena whispered, her voice quivering as tears threatened to make another appearance.

“You keep saying that.” Nick pointed out. “Are you sorry you’re pregnant?” Nick finally asked. He needed to know where she was with this situation before he could tell her what he thought about it all.

“Well, yeah. I’ve ruined everything Nick. I’ve ruined us.” She whimpered.

“So,” Nick began as he rubbed his hands on his legs. “What do you want to do?” He asked her. Selena looked up at him and he could see she was tired, so was he but this needed to be talked about. It couldn’t wait until the morning.

“I don’t believe in abortion Nick.” She whispered. “If you don’t want this baby…” Selena couldn’t talk anymore. She felt sick again.

Nick nodded and silence fell upon them once again. Selena would have this baby whether he was in the picture or not. He knew that. A sigh escaped his lips and he teased his hand through his hair. Nick wanted a family, he couldn’t deny that. He wanted to be married first though, with a woman who he knew would spend the rest of her life with him. Did Selena want to be with him for the rest of her life? Would this work out well for the both of them?

Selena couldn’t stand the silence. She had no clue what Nick was thinking and she needed to know whether he was up for the situation. Selena wants this child. She wants this child to have a father. It was then she realised she wanted a family. She was twenty-six years of age. Nick was twenty-seven. They both had steady jobs and Nick already had a three bedroomed home. Selena could see herself living here with Nick and their child. She loves him. Selena looked down at her stomach and put her hand over her it, where the child lay growing inside of her. “I want this baby Nick.” She spoke as she looked toward Nick.

“You do?” Nick asked and Selena nodded.

“I want this child with you.” She then whispered and Nick looked at her properly. “I love you Nick, and I know this is way too early but I want this child, I want you to be by my side through all of this.” She admitted. “But if you don’t want this child, then I won’t force you.” She then spoke, her voice breaking just like her heart as Nick just stared at her.

Selena blinked back her tears as Nick stayed mute. This was it then. She smiled sadly at Nick as she turned her back on him. If he didn’t want this child then she couldn’t be with him.

Nick watched as she started to take her leave, he had no idea why he couldn’t speak. He watched her leave the bathroom and the guest room. That was when Nick finally heard Selena’s words. She wanted the child with him. She wanted to be a family, something that Isabelle wasn’t willing to give him. Selena just admitted her love for him as well. LOVE.

Selena kept herself as strong as she could as she dressed back into the clothes she was wearing before they went to sleep. She dropped Nick’s shirt onto his bed and sighed. She was going to be a single mother, and she knew she couldn’t go to her parents, they wouldn’t accept her now. Her parents were extremely strict and having a child out of wedlock was pretty much the same as Selena signing emancipation letters.

Shaking the thoughts from her head Selena turned to take her leave, though Nick was blocking her only exit. Selena sighed and walked up to Nick, but before she could get a word out Nick was speaking. “This isn’t going to be easy Selena.” He told her honestly. “We haven’t known each other long but what I know is that I love you, and I will love that child.”

Selena smiled a proper smile as she realised what he was saying. “You want to keep this child?”

“Of course I do. I just needed to know if you were willing to be a family, to be with me for the rest of our lives.” Nick told her honestly. “Do you want to be a family?” He asked and Selena nodded. That was all Nick needed to know.

Selena leant in, brushing her lips against his. “I love you Nick.”

“I love you too Selena.” Nick smiled.

“And, I’ve heard that pregnant women get really hormonal. I will probably want to fuck you at least three times a day.” She smirked.

“That, I can live with.” Nick chuckled as he leant in fully and their lips connected in such a kiss filled with love.