bulletproof love

chapter 8

It has been a month since me or Andy talked...If i saw Andy i would say hi and he would look at me and just ignore me.So today i decided to go and talk to Andy about it, i knocked the BVB bus door and got answered by CC "Hi Bella,what brings you here??" "hi,just came to talk to Andy".."oh....well come inside he's on his bunk" cc said leading me to the bunks,CC left and it was time to talk to Andy.."A-Andy can i talk to you??" i said softly so Andy could hear me,Andy opened his bunk curtains and looked at me like if he was mad.."what do you want?" "I just want to know something..." "what" he said lifting up his left eyebrow "why do you ignore me,did i do something wrong??" "you did everything wrong your just a waste of my time,your a freak and no one would like that piece of shit of you??!! Just get the fuck out right now cause your nothing just a fag!!" he screamed "why are you like this,what did i do for you to hurt me??" i said with a tear inside my eye..."you being born is a problem!!! Just go and kill your self or cut like you always do!!!i wouldn't miss you or no one well!!!" i went raning out the BVB bus and went to the back of the Ptv bus were i do my videos.."hey guys it's me Bella,and this is my suicide note..i have been through a lot and i just cant hold it in no more...I love you guys all so much but it's time for me to leave...i mean no one is there for me and i just fell so left out from the world(i had so many tears in my eyes)it's not because of you guys it's about other people...Vic,Mike,Jaime,Tony am sorry but i just cant no more i try so hard to be brave but i just can't no more,you guys are my everything but i need to have some happiness..." i cried so hard "am so sorry if i ever bother any of you guys I won't do it again I promise that,you guys are going to have more happiness & feel much better without me...Mike am sorry if all i did is bother you i just wanted to talk with you but all that you use to say when i was 10 untill now was 'die or your nothing' you were right and now am leaving like you wished to...hopefully you all have happiness,i love you all so much and Vic...bye guys..." i said turning off the camera.."it's time" i said to myself..i uploaded it to my YouTube channel and went to the bathroom remembering to lock it

I got out my razor and cuted dont deep yet.."goodbye world hope your all are more happy with out me" i cutted and this time i cutted deep..all i did was smiling and closed my eyes,i could hear Vic banging on the door well he was crying, I just smiled and everything went black.. I knew I was dead from the second....

Hey guys sorry it school that never lets me do stuff...any ways the ture reason that i haven't update was because last week i have been so depressed also good news i haven't cut for 22 days and 4 1/2 weeks!!!
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