I'm In Love With My Brother's Best Friend ⇻ Levi Jones The Tide Fan Fiction

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"Morning Rhy" the guys said as I walked into the back area

"Oh uh morning" I faked a smile.

"Wanna come to the venue with us this morning?" Nate asked

"Yeh sure" I said

"Are you alright?" Austin asked me as I sat down next to him

"Yeh I'm fine just really tired. I didn't get much sleep last night" I told him

"Why? What's wrong?" He asked

"Nothing's wrong I just couldn't stop thinking about everything and anything" I lied to him.

I mean it's probably very obvious but I was awake all night thinking of what Levi would do after I told him my deepest secret. I was so paranoid he'd leave me that it kept me up most of the night. I really wanted to get it over with.

Levi and Drew came back with some food for everyone and I started getting more nervous.

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"Rhylee? Are you okay? You look distracted" Levi questioned as we were walking into the arena.

"Honestly no. I'm not okay. I was up all night and I have to do something that's making me feel crazy nervous" I admitted

"What do you have to do that's making you nervous? Also why were you up all night?!" He seemed really concerned

"I'm nervous because I have to tell you my deepest secret which I've only ever told about 4 people about and I was up all night thinking of how you'd possibly break up with me after I told you" I wasn't going to lie to him

"Rhylee. Trust me I'd never want to break up with you. You're stuck with me" Levi tried to make the moment a little more happy

"Look Levi. You remember how you asked about something on my wrist?" I asked as he nodded

"Well that was a bandage. And the bandage is there because" I could feel the tears about to come bursting out of my eyes which was killing me more.

"Because. I uhh I, I may or may not cut" I couldn't stop stuttering

"Are you serious?" Levi put his hands on my shoulders

"Of course I am. I wouldn't be bawling my eyes out for no reason" I said and he hugged me as tight as possible

"Hey do you two wanna hur--" Nate walked over to us soon realizing I was crying

"What's wrong? Did she just uh tell you?" Nate asked Levi who nodded in respond

"Well. I'll give you two some space then" he said leaving

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"Oh my god I probably look so ugly. I'm sorry you have to see me like this" I said wiping my eyes

"don't apologize. You still look beautiful like always" he smirked

"It's just this whole thing is a really hard topic for me to talk about. I hope you can understand" I said

"Of course I understand. I just wanna know two things. You don't have to answer me if you don't want though. Why do you do this to yourself? And when was the last time you hurt yourself?" I could see the sad expression in his face

"I don't know I just think this world is really shitty most of the time and the last time was the other night when I first saw the pictures of you and that friend kissing" I quietly said

"Princess. I'm so so sorry. I didn't know it hurt you this much. You have no idea how sorry I am" Levi shed a tear or two

"Don't blame yourself. It's my fault I looked him into the eyes

"But I was the reason you hurt yourself. There's no denying it. That's what happened" Levi sounded annoyed at himself

"No Levi. I won't let you blame yourself. It really was my fault. I'm the stupid one who overreacted over it" I held onto his hands

"No matter what I'm going to feel guilty about what happened" he looked down

"You really shouldn't" I kissed his cheek before we had to go into the back stage area 

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"Are you okay?" Nate asked

"Yeh. I'll be fine. I had to tell him about it sooner or later" I told him

"You know that he's gonna help you right?" He said

"I know. But you are aware that just because Levi and I are dating doesn't mean I won't need my big brother" I said

"I'll always be here for you kiddo" he said

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It was really nice to see that even though Nate doesn't exactly like Levi and I being together he's still accepting of us. I just didn't want him to think that because there's another guy in my life that he's been replaced because he'll always be the number 1 guy in my life.

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I was sitting in the seats where the crowd was going to be while messaging Maddison as the boys were rehearsing when all of a sudden someone sat next to me.

Of course I turn to see who it was and there sat Bradley.

Of course I mentally died because he's been my celeb crush for as long as I can remember.

"Oh god you're real. Hello" I had my face in my hands

"Hey there. I don't believe we've properly met" he said talking about the other night when I really couldn't be bothered meeting them

"Yeh about that. I'm sorry about last night. There was just so much happening" I apologized

"Don't apologize. It's not your fault. I hope everything is okay between you and your ex" he said

"Yeh we sorted everything out" I smiled

"So why are you watching this lame band?" Brad laughed

"I don't know. I have nothing better to do so here I am" I said

"Well then come with me" he said and I wasn't going to turn down hanging with Brad

"Hey where do you think you're going?" Nate laughed at me

"I'm kidnapping your sister" Brad said and Nate just shook his head laughing

"Just remember she's off limits!" Nate said jokingly but we all knew he was being serious

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You had no idea how hard it was to not freak out over this!

I loved Brad so much and he randomly came and sat with me and now he's holding my hand leading me backstage. I swear I was so close to screaming.