The Walking Dead [Daryl Dixon]

Chapter 46- Useless

~Daryl's P.O.V.~

Foots broken? Great. That night Haley and I slept and I hugged her tight. Not letting her go. I couldn't stop thinking about it. Her foot is now basically broken. We have no medicine here for her. She's gotta heal, on her own. Imagine how long that's gonna take. And this place, this church, I doubt it's gonna hold us very long. The same night we woke up because Bob went missing. Some of the group went out looking for him. I noticed Carol get up and sneak out. It made me wonder. But it clicked, she was going after the abandoned car we found. I looked over at Haley and she noticed I saw her leave. She sighed and covered her face with her hands before looking at me. She nodded ahead at the direction of the door

"Go"

I looked at her, back at the door, then back at her. I could tell she was worried. If I went out. I simply shook my head

"Daryl" She grabbed half of my dirty face with her right hand "Yes it's dangerous out there. But Carol may be in trouble. Now go help her. And come back to me. And if you run into trouble. Just find me again"

I grabbed her hand and kissed it, then leaned foward and kissed her lips. I swear I love this girl "I will be back"

I stood up, grabbed my weapon and took off.

~Haley's P.O.V.~

I felt useless. Almost everyone is out there looking for Bob. And Daryl went to go find Carol. And I was just sitting here. Feeling completely useless. I had trouble standing up and I hopped on one leg over to Judith. I sat next to Carl, I could tell he was itching to find out what was going on. I groaned when I sat down and looked at Carl. I motioned him to hand her over. He chuckled and handed her to me. He stood up and walked towards the door. I rocked Judith as she was quiet. Almost sleeping. To this day I still couldn't believe Lori had a baby, I wish I could've met her. I watched as Judith opened her eyes and she stared straight at me. That made me smile. Out of nowhere I heard noise outside, Rick and the others run outside. Judith flinched when we heard gunshots outside. Not long after they came in

"Oh my god. Is that Bob?" I asked

I looked at Carl and he nodded. They laid Bob on the floor and he was explaining what happened. Judith began almost crying and I rocked her, she quickly stopped. I heard Rick mention about Daryl and Carol.

"They drove off" Bob said

What? Drove off? Why? They must've had a reason. Maybe they were getting chased by walkers. Or Gareth was chasing them. Why would they drive off? I blanked out but I looked up to see Bob revealing be got bit on the shoulder. Sasha and the rest helped him in Gabriel's office. Judith began to cry when Carl took her from me and into a basket to lay her down

"We need to leave to D.C. right now" Abraham said

I scoffed "Daryl and Carol are gonna come back" Rick said

"We're not going without them. Plus my foots broken" I said

Abraham and Rick began to get into it. Almost yelling at each other. Glenn went in and broke it up. I simply walked away. I couldn't take it anymore. I walked into another room they had. I sat on a chair and stared at my foot. Tears began to emerge, I wiped them away quickly when I felt someone walk in the room. I looked up to see Maggie. I sniffed and she sat next to me

"Haley" She began

"Maggie, don't" I looked up at her "I'm the one apologizing, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you back there I just"

"It's okay, I understand why you did"

"I just don't really understand. Why all of this is happening. And something like this always has to happen. Whether its me getting hurt, or Daryl going missing"

She pulled me into a side hug

"And now Abraham wants to leave, now"

"Don't worry were not going anywhere, and as for Daryl he's gonna come back. He always does"

"He went after Carol, when they were on the run they found an abandoned car, that's probably where he followed her to. But Bob said they drove off. Why would they do that?"

"They must've had a good reason. Look Haley I see it everyday, how much he loves you. He will find his way back. Trust me"

I nodded "I just feel useless. With this broken foot"

She stayed quiet then patted my leg "Come on. Let's go out with the rest of the group"

I nodded before wiping away the last of my tears. She helped me up and we made our way outside to the rest of the group. I looked around but Daryl was no where. Maggie sat down along with the group. Tyreese walked into the room where Sasha was with Bob. Rick was talking to the group. I looked around before heading to the back door. All I had with me was my knife. I quietly went out the back door and left the church. I hopped on one foot into the woods. I needed a time for myself. I sat on a rock a good amount of distance from the church. I stared at my foot, it was still swollen. How useless I fell never left my mind. All night I thought about it. Soon the sun began to rise. And I thought how can Daryl just leave me like this. I know he's gonna be back but still. Why would he leave me? I moved my eyes to the knife I held in my hand. And I thought. Why am I here? I'm not needed. If anything I'm slowing everyone down. What the point of living if all I'm gonna do is slow people down on a run. I don't even think this church is gonna hold us. I raised the knife to my stomach. I placed my hands on the knife and held the tip to my stomach. I took a deep breath and looked straight foward. My breathing began to get heavy when I felt the tip of the knife hit my skin and it began to tear open the skin. I could slowly feel my blood running down.