Look At The Stars

Noah

"So, hey."

Emma stares at me and waves her hand.

I sit down next to her.

"I'm sorry for-"

"-Don't. It's not your fault."

"But I am-"

"-You shouldn't be."

"Please, let me-"

"I don't want you to say that you're sorry."

"Why?"

"Because you shouldn't be."

"But I really am." She sighs. 

I start laughing. I seem like I lost my sanity, or well, Emma sees me like that. 

"What's so funny?"

"All of this."

"I don't find it funny."

"You're right." I say seriously.-"It's hilarious." I start laughing, which turns to a chuckle. 

"Noah, I mean it, stop laughing. I am-"

"What? Sorry? For what?" I half yell. So yeah, about seeming like I lost my sanity, I pass that theory. 

"For what I told you." She half yells back. 

I laugh quietly. "Yeah, okay." I say unconvinced. 

"Noah, take it seriously. Please." She scolds me. 

I fake a smile."Yeah, sure."

"Now, if you'll let me."She clears her throat. "I am.-"

"No, you're not."

"Noah. Please. I am-"

"Awesome."

"No. I am.-"

"Lame?"

"I am.-"

"Cute."

"Noah. I am just.-" She starts raising her voice. 

"You can't be. You shouldn't be." I say calmly. 

"Sorry." She says in the same raised voice. 

"What for?"

"Because I feel so.-"

I decided to kiss her. The tension on her shoulders starts to go away.

Then she steps back.

She starts crying quietly.

"Why are you doing this?"She sounded hurt and exhausted. 

"You needed to.-"

"You tell me it hurts you to like me and then you kiss me." Tears keep rolling down her cheeks. 

"Emma, just let me expl.-"

"Explain? Yeah, right."

"Emma, I saw you tense up, so.-"

"You decided to kiss me?" She laughs softly. "Is that what you have done to other girls? Kiss them to relax them?"

I glance at her. "I told you to not be sorry, you shouldn't be here with me."

"Why do you think that?"

I don't answer.

"Why?" She starts sobbing.

"I knew it. I knew it would happen." I start walking away.