Save Me

29

August

I sat in the room watching ESPN,  not paying attention to Jay as she sat poking my cheek.

"Talk to me pleaseee I miss your voice" she pouted. I had to stop myself from smirking cause I was pissed at her. I know it's fucked up that I'm mad at her, but  I just thought about somebody else making her feel the way I do and I just got mad-- man or woman, I didn't want nobody touching or even thinking about her that way.

especially knowing that they got what I wanted since day one... her.

Yeah I have her now but this feeling that I won't be good and I'll fuck up like I'm known for doing is heavy on my mind.

I don't think I'm really mad, just a lil jealous that that bitch trinna take my lady.

  Call me crazy as fuck, but I know she deserves someone better then me, Jay is everything a man-- especially one like me could ask for, broken or not, she a keeper.

That's why I won't let her get away, she the only female that I've ever been able to connect with me  on a mental level and it's crazy cause every body else is so quick to give up on me, family and all  but not her.

She gone fa'eva be my baybeh fa that and imma try my damn hardest not to hurt ha.

"Bruh stop touchin me" I mumbled swattin ha hands away. I heard ha smack ha lips then she got up and walked out the room slamming the door in the process.

I stared at the tv then the door for a minute before hoping up and going after her.

When I walked to the front, she was in the kitchen leaning over the counter with her head in her hands. I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her waist from behind.

"Baeeee " I sang lowly causing her to stand up straight and turn around in my arms. She looked up at me and she poked her bottom lip out and her eyes reared up.

My heart damn near broke when I saw that and I knew it was my fault.
  I touched ha cheek with my fingers and shook my head.

"Baybeh don't look like that.. " I started but she held her hand up cutting me off.

"No, it's OK I'm good. But I am sorry, I should have told you--"

"Nah, you ain't have to tell me nothing. We wa'nt ta'gatha then so you'on owe me no explanation I was stupid fa getting mad with you and I'm sorry " I said then quickly kissed ha lips. She smiled and wrapped her arms around me neck.

"You know something... I never thought I would have ever heard those words out of your mouth again" she said causing me to chuckle.

"Yeah me either but fa you, no tellin what i'a do or say"

She looked up at me and I smiled.

"Nah Stop allat cryin' lawd"

Justine

August and I laid in bed in silence just enjoying the peacefulness.

"Jay.." he called my name.

"Hmm" I hummed as I busied my self by playing with his fingers. He was silent for a second then he shifted a little.

"Would you eva' have a baybeh fa me" that question caught me off guard, I didn't know what to say and I was honestly surprised.

"Well-well I mean.. I never actually thought about having another child after what happened the first time  but --?" I trailed off looking at him.  He nodded as I stared up  at him while he massaged my scalp. My eyes closed and I let out a relaxing sigh.