Save Me

43

Justine

"Hellll to the fuck no, is you crazy Justine!" I sighed as me and August sat outside of Janelle's room. She was being released tomorrow and I told him about her situation after I talked to her.

"Look Aug, I know it sounds kinda stupid that I wanna help her after everything she did, but she's--"

"Stupid as fuck to ask you can she come stay with you" he said cutting me off. I looked down and shook my head. I hadn't even told him about the Devin situation yet and I didn't want to because I know how he is and bodies will drop until Devin turns up dead.

"Man look I know you got a good heart and wanna help everybody and shit Jay but you gots ta' know that ya can't help every body cause even tho you got ya best interest at heart most of them people don't like ha. Ion trust that hoe fa nothin, and I ain't trinna run your life or nothing I'm just trying to protect you " I nodded and looked at him.

"You're right. I don't know what I was thinking, but I'm still gonna at least give her some money ya know so she wouldn't be that bad off" I said. He licked his lips and took a deep breath.

Sighing he went in his pocket and pulled out a ten dollar bill handing it to me.

"Don't Be Petty all ya life August" I rolled my eyes with a small grin.

He chuckled and shrugged.

"Hurry up, do what you gotta do. I'm trinna go get high how bout Chu?" He asked. I was about to say hell yeah but then I thought about it. That wouldn't be a good idea.

"About that... know what I'll be back" I said standing up with the check in my hand. I had already anticipated on giving that to her because I was kind of skeptical on letting her stay with me my Damn self so it was just a little something to help her get on her feet.

Once I left the hospital August rode with me to Walgreen's to fill my prescription that I made sure he didn't see then we went straight to my house, I changed into something comfortable while he made Chris and Duke take his car home.

"So wassup with the weed, you smokin or what?" He asked coming out my kitchen with a bag of Doritos and a root beer. I shook my head no as I rubbed my stomach, I felt like I'd fucking throw up at any moment and that's just because I was scared as Shit of what he might say.

"No I'm not smoking, but look sit down I have a lot to tell you" I said nervously causing him to look at me with his eyebrows raised. He sat down across from me on the recliner and clasped his hands together.

"Well then gone head talk" he said, his jaws clenched as he waited like he knew what I was about to tell him wasn't something he wanted to hear. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

"I-I lied to you August " I started.

"That time I told you that I lost my baby, I really didn't "

"I already knew that" he said catching me by surprise. I looked up at him with my eyed wide.

"H-How?"

"The picture, when you was moving ya stuff this fell out a box" he said taking it out his wallet. He handed it to me and I looked at the hospital picture that had her name, d.o.b and everything else on it. I smiled as I stared down at it. As I looked back up at him though my smile dropped. He looked so angry like I had did something that scarred him for life.

I was about to open my mouth to speak but he beat me to the punch.

"Why you had ta lie to me Jay? Watchu thought I was gone judge you or somethin? I ain't that type of nigga if I love you that mean I except everything that comes along with you especially a child. You know how bad I want baybeh and fa you ta keep somethin like this from me is fucked up. It makes me realize afta' everything and all the shit I done tol' ya ass. You still can't even trust a nigga, no lie that Shit hurt and you the only fuckin female besides my own momma that Eva hurt me!" He yelled while pointing his finger at me. His nose flared as is breathing became uneven and the look of hurt was visible on his face.