Demolished Love | Death Cure

Control

  I wake up in a sweat. My head pounds and my body shivers, freezing cold. The memories continue to flash through my mind and I feel cold tears down my face, I didn't even realize I was crying. My fingers tremble as I pull my thin blanket over myself, wrapping up but it gives me no warmth, and being constricted sends my mind into a frenzy. My body shoots up into a sitting position, chest panting.

  I instantly feel a hand on my shoulder and I look over to see Newt, sitting up from his sleeping position in the back seat of the car.

  "Olivia?" He asks, voice raspy. "What's wrong, love?"

  "I-I don't know," I groan, hand flying to my head. "Its like a buzzing inside my head." Like bees or wasps pounding against my skull. Pain fills me up and tears start streaming down my face.

  "Don't cry, Olivia," Newt whispers. He pulls me closer to him, resting my head against his chest, gently shushing me as he runs his hands through my hair. "You're alright, you're safe."

  I let him hold me and comfort me, but the buzzing turns into a ringing in my brain and words start singing in my ears,

  Run.
  Run.
  Run.

  And a switch goes off in my brain. Suddenly, I am pushing Newt of of myself and stumbling backwards, banging my head against the window.

  "Olivia!" He says.

  The others start waking up. Jorge scratches his head. "What's going on?" He asks. I can't find the strength to respond.

  "I'm not sure," Newt says, watching me with worry closely. "Olivia." He reaches out for me.

  No.
  No.
  Not him.

  A voice screams inside my head. I grab the door handle, jiggling it but it's locked.

  I don't know why I am trying to get out, but it's as if I don't have control over my actions. As if I'm on autopilot and I don't have a say in anything. Like I am in someone else's body.

  A thud sounds from behind us. I snap my head around and see Aris. He is screaming something indecipherable and pounding the window from the trunk. Minho and Brenda are up, trying to pull him back but he's fighting them.

  "Let me out." I say against my will. Where did the words come from, how come I couldn't control them coming out, what is happening.

  Another firework goes off in my brain and I am slamming my head against the window. "Let me out!" I yell. Newt is reaching for me but I am clawing his hands off me. Finally, Jorge unlocks the door and I fall out of the car and onto the broken pavement. Aris hops out of the trunk and staggers towards me.

"Olivia!"

  I jump at his voice inside my head. He hasn't been able to to that for a while. I form a response in my own mind, pushing hard to deliver it to him like old times.

  "What is happening, I can't control anything I am doing or saying!" I tell him.

  "I don't know, I feel the same way." He replies.

  And next, I am running.

  Hide.
  Hide.
  Hide.

  I hear Aris chasing after me. His feet thud against the sidewalk as we run through alleyways, weaving through twists and turns until we reach a dead end, which I turn around and face Aris. He is stiff like me, I can't move at all I am frozen in place and an assortment of emotions race through my head;fear, confusion, regret.