From Rejection To Perfection

Chapter 18 [ Painful Howl ]

I am good for a while
I'll talk more, laugh more
Sleep and eat normally
But then something happens
Like a switch turns off somewhere
And all I am left with is the darkness of my mind
But each time it seems like I sink
Deeper and deeper
And I am scared...
Terrified that one day I won't make it back up
I feel like I am gasping for air
Screaming for help
But everyone just looks at me
With confused faces
Wondering what I am struggling over
When they're all doing just fine
And it makes me feel crazy

What the hell is wrong with me?

~ M.H

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I laugh nervously whilst scratching the back of my head.

"Em....well..." I start to stammer and look away from him.

Should I trust him?

Yes

No

Yes

N-

Well, he is our mate! states the voice in my head, clearly getting vexed with me.

Well can you blame me? The voice snaps, hearing my voice.

Who rejected us, remember? I remind myself and the voice.

Do you have a better option? Snaps the voice again, impatiently.

I sigh inwardly and return my gaze back to Will who was also getting a little impatient.

"I'm the beast" I finally manage to blurt out.

Will looks at me in shock.

"But...how?" He asks stunned.

"Honesty? I don't have a freaking clue. I mean, it just doesn't make any sense! "I reply frustrated and throw my hands up in the air.

He doesn't reply.

"What am I going to do?" I add quietly looking up at him from under my eye lashes.

He smiles at me weakly. " don't worry angel, we'll find a way"

"We? " I asked, dumbfounded.

"Of course I'm going to help! " he says, looking at me in disbelief. 

"Why? " I ask.

" because you're my mate! " he replies as if it's the most obvious thing in the world.

No. He doesn't deserve to call me that, he lost that right the minute he rejected me.

" but you rejected me! " I snap outraged.

"I-" he starts but cuts himself off while looking away from me in defeat.