How Did I Find You? || Stydia

Unspoken Connection.

It's odd how close you can become with someone without a lot of spoken dialogue, it funny how someone can transform you by giving you looks that send shivers down your spine. How a smile can cause you stomach aches that don't go away.

I've never been super close to people before, I don't like to open up to people it makes me feel vulnerable. I need to able to build up trust before I spill my emotions to anyone. I can trust Allison. Allison and Mum are the only people I would open up too and even then I don't fully express my emotions.

So the other day when I told Stiles about my dogs passing and letting him see that weak side of me was surprising, I genuinely surprised myself and most of all, he surprised me. I mean we only actually started talking, not even we barely talk not long ago but yet I still feel so close to him.

But as well that could be because I'm a creep that has liked him since the 3rd freaking grade.

But, still.

I don't know how to explain it, me pressing down that button of my window so I could talk to him did more then just bring down a stupid window, it was letting someone else into my life. That usually takes years to build my trust even if it's as stupid as talking about my dog.

I wanted to keep talking, keep going on about my life and his and I just wanted to learn things about him that no one else knows, I wanted to hear about his day and I wanted him to ask about mine. I wanted to find out his favourite colour and he ask me. Most importantly I wanted him to call me beautiful again.
Then I remember letting him in is simply breaking all my rules. I will not break my self morals for some boy that seems that he can see into my soul. 

Since that night we haven't talked much, so when we do it's always super special, well to me at least. For a week everyone morning he asked if I was alright and that he is always open for a chat. It slightly bothered me how I never saw this side to the boy I have liked for so long. He was that popular guy you could never go talk with, he was such a loyal friend to Scott but it seemed like a pretty tough friendship circle to break into, it was him, Scott, Isaac, Liam, Malia and Kira. And they all seemed so nice, I was convinced Stiles and Malia had a thing but I never wanted it to be true. Recently I haven't seen anything that would make my theory correct they seem like good friends. If only I was that close like they are, Malia was new and Stiles was like her mentor but now she is settled in, I don't see anything romantic.

I also thought Stiles was this closed person as well, he would never let people into his personal world and the thoughts in his head would be never explored. It annoyed me that I couldn't scrutinize his mind. He was always thinking and not sure what about. So his offer for us to speak shocked me, but me opening up to him the other night was is the heat of the moment and I feel like I couldn't do it again, not until I figure out more about my 3rd grade crush.

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Allison had been bugging me about lacrosse and how she wants to watch Scott play, their wasn't much in it for me since Stiles is in the team, but his sporting abilities certainly aren't like his school smarts so I would be watching him on the bench the whole time. Which would be alright, but still a waste of my time on a Friday night. Being the good friend that I am, I went anyway. The second we arrived Scott runs up to Allison lifts her and spins her around.

"Glad you could make it" he whispers in their intimate hug and she responds with an "always." Stiles quickly runs up to Scott, "Hey buddy, coach is called you, you're the captain remember", Scott answered "yeah, just give me a sec". As Stiles spins around before he runs back his gaze catches my gaze and he pulls his hand up giving me a quick wave. It is moments like those that make me feel so nervous inside.

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3 minutes left on the board and Beacon Hills are losing by 1 score. The game had been a tough one, filled with more downs then ups. The whistle has been blown as Scott is being helped off the ground, the opposing team seem to filled with lots of aggression and are knocking out the Beacon Hills team left, right and center. As Scott goes near the bench Allison runs off her seat to see Scott, as I eye the bench a figure that had seem to be frozen the whole game, stands with the coach's demand.

Stiles, he's finally playing. To be honest, we are screwed. If there is one thing I have noticed about Stiles the years I have paid attention to him, it's that he can't play lacrosse.

As he runs around the field looking so lost yet so full of hope at the same thing, the timer hits 15 seconds. Beacon hills had managed to score 1 by Danny and the fate of his teams lies on Stiles as the ball hits his lacrosse stick and the ball rests in the netting. 

...14... Stiles looks around, extremely confused

..13...12....11 He stands there freezing, ignoring the screaming crowd.

..10..9...8 Suddenly the energy of the game had hit me as I joined the rest of the standing crowd. Watching the boy full of nerves as he faces the goal post.

...7..6.."C'MON STILES" I scream out of me so loudly even Allison who is aiding Scott looks my way.

...5.. The whole audience hold there breath as the ball is swigged towards the goal.

...4..3...2 The balls hits the net and Stiles stands in shock has he realization that he just shot the winning goal sets in

..1. The audience explodes as I keep my eyes focused on the shocked, adorable puppy like boy jumping around in joy.

His team mates are almost jumping on his in joy and his eyes meet my eyes. Even though the world around us is screaming and crazy it seems like almost slow motion and I look into his brown eyes even of they are far away and clap probably showing a stupid smile of how happy I am. He gives me such a warm smile and for those 5 seconds it was just him and I in this world.

And I finally understood our relationship, we had this unspoken connection. One in which I have never had with someone before and made me want to explore with him.

Soooooooooooooo I know you all hate me for disappearing for a while, so happy new year! I promise this year I will be more active. Just exploring Lydia's thoughts and how they have this connection. Super pumped for 5B (I feel a lot more Stydia coming along). I have a lot more ideas planned this year. Hope you enjoyed this chapter xx