How Did I Find You? || Stydia

Set My Heart on Fire.

My stomach dropped as I watched the clock tick and tick until it hit 7am. Right on the dot, Mum came into my room.

"Start getting for school sweetheart, " she said while opening my blinds, to then I double checked I wasn't a vampire, closing my eyes at the sight o the sun.

"Oh stop moaning Lydia, you haven't been to school in a while...it's time. The last time you went it was ummmm..."

I cut her off remembering exactly the last time I went,

"The day after Allison died. It um wasn't a full day, the last time I survived a full day, I had Allison, had never been drugged and never even visited a mental hospital....things have changed.."

I lay back into my bed, feeling like someone just pulled me back into my bed covers, where I could hide, it used to be easy to hide, no one knew who I was.

Now I have a label, multiple actually.

'Dead girl's best friend'

'Prom Attack Victim'

'Disappeared for ages, unknown reasons'

'Part of Scott's and Stiles' Group'

My Mum joined me on my bed, laying next to me as we watched the wall.

"Lydia, you don't have to go if you don't want"

I took a huge breath,

"but I do Mum"

Then she threw a pillow in my face and told me to hurry up.

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I caught a ride to school from Malia that day, she was a lot better of a driver than she used to be. Not perfect, but improved.

I made it, I'm back at school.

Malia and I linked arms as we entered, she wanted to support me, it's strange how if Allison never brought me into this group, I would have no one right now, I thank her so much for what she did for me when she was on this earth.

I entered the school nervous, but ready. The first people I see is Isaac and Kira, followed with Scott. Then as I travelled to my locker, I see a nervous figure waiting for me as they chewed their nails. I couldn't help but notice my face make an express that hadn't happened in a while.

Smile, an actual pure smile, of pure joy.

I was looking at someone, that saved me, has had my back for months.

Someone I feel like I'm falling for.

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When he saw me, I didn't have any time to react to his tight hug.

He whispered still hugging me,

"you're alright."

Finally managing to find my arms and place them around him,

"I am. I'm alright."

Neither of us wanted to let go, but we knew where we drew the line at friends and finally letting go I saw his upset express.

"But are you alright Stiles?"

He looked anxious, not like every day anxious but something was bothering him.

"I'm fine, why wouldn't it be" he held my hand for comfort.

I saw right through him, but saying anything I knew he would get deference, so I left it alone for now.

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The day went on and I lost count of how many people would stare at me, as I passed the hallway, walk into the classroom, try and act normal.

Stiles made a comment at lunch about how annoying it is and how people need to back off. He actually got really worked up about it.

I almost made it through the end of the day as I was walking down the hall with Stiles, as I was going to ask him about his mood all day he out of nowhere asked me

"Aren't you sick of it all."

Before I could open my mouth he kept going

"Like you were sent to hell and back, your best friend died!"

He slightly raised his voice on the last part of that sentence.

"Just stop." I said calmly shoving in front of him wanted to leave this conversation since the topic made me upset.

He kept talking, though, with his voice sounding jumpy

"and now you finally come back to school and everyone is looki....."

he voice is full of heavy breaths and he is struggled to find words to speak.

I turn around confused and concerned.

"...Stiles"

I see that his hands are shaking like crazy and he is struggling to breathe.

Looking around freaking out he pushes out the words

"I think I'm having a panic attack"

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