Teen wolf imagines

Derek- away

I'd had enough. Whatever I used to feel about him was lost due to the fact that I never see him anymore and whenever I did see him he would be sleeping or helping supernatural teenagers. I admired how much he helped and cared for them but by doing so he was cutting out me.

Derek isn't one of those people that you fall lightly for. You fall hard or not at all, and boy did I fall hard. I was in love with everything he did from sleep to sneeze and whenever he touched me it felt like my skin was ignited. But I couldn't do it anymore. The late nights, him constantly tired and injured, I just can't take it anymore. Seeing him in such a run down state was taking a toll on me. I've started to eat less, causing a serious weight loss, and I've re-devolved my insomnia. Taking a break from him would be the hardest thing I would ever do but it would help both of us. 

"Where are you going?" Derek called as I placed the last duffel bag by the door. I didn't want to turn around, because if I saw his face I knew I would cry, but his voice is like a beacon so I did. I turned around.

"Out." I replied already getting teary eyes. Predictable.

"I realise that, but where?" He crossed his arms over his chest as I took in a deep breath.

"Away," I started, desperately acting strong. "Away from you" I added softly, scared of his reaction.

"So instead of talking this through your running away?" He questions harshly and i flinch at his tone.

"I tried talking Derek." I sighed running a hand through my tangled hair. "I wasn't getting through to you, so yes. Calling it running away or whatever you want but it's for the best and that's what I'm doing."

"So what you don't love me anymore?" He asks, his voice so obviously filled with pain.

"It's not that simple." I state and he growls.

"Yes it is. You love me or you don't." His clenched teeth made me shrink away but I knew they were just for show. His anger was like a cushion so he didn't have to feel the pain but I need him to understand.

"I do." I admitted and he smiled relaxing slightly.

"Then stay." His voice was like a plead but I shook my head biting my lip.

"I can't." My voice cracked as tears fell as I continued. "I can't watch the same thing happen over and over again to you. I can't watch you keeping getting hurt."

"Your doing it now." He shouted and I flinched away from him.

"Do you know what it's like to watch the person you love deteriorate?" I shout back, my anger shocking him.

"Do you not think that I haven't seen what I'm doing to you?" He replied loudly and I stopped in my tracks. "You think, I'm oblivious to everything. Believe it or not but every time you cry at night because you can't sleep, I'm awake wishing I could help."

"I'm so sorry Derek." I whispered pulling the door open, slumping the bags on my shoulders.

"Your really doing this?" He called and I nodded, my bottom lip trembling. "Your leaving me."

"I have to." I turned around walking away from him and I felt my heart break. I could feel the pieces travel down to my stomach and it made me feel sick. Despite the tears I closed the door behind me but just in time to see him collapse in tears calling my name. I whispered softly, knowing that he could hear me before walking away.

"I love you."