Waiting For You

Chapter Twenty Three

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It feels like a wound that's been slowly torturing until those little touch felt like a sword slashing through its skin,flesh,mind and soul.

i feel like i'm still crying but i'm not.My tears are dry from everything,and my enemy has defeated me from every stakes

Nanatili lang ako sa kwarto ko ng ilang linggo at nagmukmok, ni dahilan kung bakit ako nasasaktan ay hindi ko alam.Para akong sinampal ng isang Math problem na hindi ko alam ang sagot.Hindi ba't kailangan mo munang alamin ang isang problema bago mo malaman kung paano iyo sasagutan? pero iba ang nararamdaman ko

Hindi ko alam.Hindi ko maintindihan.Kung siguro'y kami pa hanggang ngayon at nakita ko siyang may kasamang iba naiintindihan ko pa pero hindi

How could this love hurt like being thrown to hell by your own God when it's just a physical love, a love that will only last before you forever fall asleep to your real slumber.

"Are you okay?" Pinatigil niya ang makina ng kanyang sasakyan at tinignan ako gamit ang mga mapanuri at nag aalalang mata.

I should really stop bothering people and making them worry.

"I'm okay thank you." Nginitian ko siya pero halatang lutang na lutang ako

"You should rest now,or you should at least pick up Ash" ngumiwi siya at bumaling sa bintana ng kanyang kotse.

Ruthless.It must be hard for Ash to love someone like him but then again i can't blame him.I don't know his side

I guess as a friend all i can do is watch them.Let them fall.Let them be bruised.Let them heal then try again and if they do the same mistake,maybe there i']] disturb them even if it hurts them

"Let's talk." He said and i rested my sleepy head to the window of the car

"Okay! Let's talk!" gosh! I'm sober!

"Krista." Mom called me with her sweetest voice.If only i was a child who's crying because of a bruise,Mommy could've helped me hush and be happy.But i'm not.

The door opened as i averted my gaze back to my lampshade.

She sat beside me and brushed her gentle hands through my hair and i hugged her just like i used to

"Sorry ma ah.Dito muna ako sa bahay."

"Shhh.It's okay.Okay lang sa akin.Tahana na Krista." I already tried that but i failed

"Your Dad and I were never perfect from the beginning.He had other girls before he married me.Hinayaan ko siyang magpaka tanga at magpakasaya hanggang sa kinasal kami.Feelings fade,love can't be felt always.You may feel like you don't love him but the truth is you do."

Kahit kailan ay 'di ki naman pinangarap na magkaroon ng mala teleserye na buhay.I never wished for it,never dreamed of it,never even wanted it.

Pero kaya nga may kasabihang Hindi lahat ng gusto mo nasusunod.May mga bagay Na Hindi mo naman ginusto pero biglang dumatung SA iyo and in the end nagustuhan mo naman at merong mga bagay na hindi mo talaga gugustuhin pero yun yung nilalatag sa harapan mo

"Ako muna Dale." Sabi ko.He motioned his hands and gave me the privilege

"Why are you like that to Ash?" Tanong ko tila ba hindi nagpapapigil sa magiging reaksyon niya "Why do you have to be so harsh and ruthless to her?" Tinignan niya akong maiigi.

"It's her fault,kung ano mang ginagawa ko sakanya siya rin ang may kagagawan niyan" nag iwas siya ng tingin at bumaling sa labas "She asked for it and i'm giving it to her,she said she'll prove something and she'll show me what she's worth."