Waiting For You

Chapter Eighteen

Cale.

Their like a squad trying to stand against my barricade and im very much afraid for those little pain squad to enter me again...Yet here i am wasting my life again in the bar...gulp straight,feel the burn,forget your worries.how i love liquors...i stood up from the high chaor then i went to the crowd being one with the wave of drunk people...yesterday im little goody two shoes today im bitchy...i felt someone dance behind me.im used to this.hindi lang naman ako sa Paris tumira pagka uwi ko ng pilipinas nag US ako then New York then back here again so i easily adapted the western life...

I turned my face to see the flirt guy who's flirting me...nagulat ako nung nakita ko yung ka ex ko.Si Cale."Oh my gosh! Cale!"

Niyakap ko sya and he patted his hands on my back then smacked his lips with mine.I laughed.im used to it."You didnt told me na uuwi ka pala ngayon sa pinas di tuloy kita nasundo sa Airport!" Nakilala ko si Cale sa Paris nung nasa field ako ng university namin di nahiya nang flirt nalang agad -_- pfftt much to my surprise he was also a filipino so nakahanap ako ng makakasam ko and then he became my boyfriend with him knowing my story.we didnt mind if we loved each other.basta masaya kami sa company ng isa't-isa...no strings attached nung hindi na kami kaya friends kami he's my guy best friend

"Love you dont have to..." pabiro nyang sabi at itinaas ang dalawang kamay "i can get my ass inside a cab and pay for it.why disturb you right?" We both laughed na miss ko rin si Cale kahit papaano...nagkaroon ako ng maraming fling nung nasa US and New york ako pero si Cale lang yung pilipino at yung naging super close ko kaya hanggang ngayon we still comunicate

"I saw him in Amsterdam-------" i covered his mouth

"Cale shut the cranky man up and i dont wanna hear it" i frustratedly said "im here to forget okay bro? So shut the bloody man up" hinila ko sya sa center crowd and doon kami nagsaya...sumayaw and naglokohan

I eventually got tired so i baled then he followed me

"So Cale." I started a conversation "wala ka paring nahahanap?" I asked and he gave me a wind blowing smile

"Of course meron." He said "And? Where is she? Bakit di mo kasama? Hindi ba magseselos yun? Knowing that your with a very tempting and beautiful girl" i smiled

"So? Sya naman nanliligaw.hindi ako" piningot ko sya

"Ang kulit din naman ng kokote mo Cale eh noh...dont make her your doll.please not another one" he raised his hands up as sign of he surrenders

"Wag mo kong sitahin na parang napatawad mo na sya Krista.you dont wanna talk about him i dont wanna talk about her then be even.i'll play the game." He smiled at me,ughhh that charmy smile.that very charmy smile that i made
and shaped him into.From the innocent boy who like me to that...i didnt know that He made me changed like a monster that i changed Cale just to----- nevermind.that's the past

"Walking at time square.laughing like that person never met someone that he loved has been hurting up until now" he stared at his glass and spun the liquor in it then looked at me "do you want to hear more Krista?" I stared at him.tears formed but it doesnt want to fall....no it wont fall.it doesnt wan to fall."based on my stalking ability Krista it seems for me that he---- okay i'll stop now i was just kidding hahahahaha!" He laughed.hinaeakan nya yung tiyan nya sa sobrang tawa kasi napagtripan nya na naman ako...i pout my lips.ginulo nya yung buhok ko then he looked at me that look that he used to give me.the attraction in his eyes.and the guilt thatvpangs in me because i cant give the same

I just went to the dance floor again.bitching myself off i closed my eyes feeling the music and the electricity in sends down my spines.i opened my eyes and for a second i saw him i blinked once then he was gone.i smiled t'was jusy my imagination silly me

I drink a couple more glass of whiskey and jack daniels before my eyes felt sandy...i yawned and i poked Cale's shoulders.He was sitting in the counter bar and drinking his glass when he turned his back on me then smiled and saw how my eyes fell on the ground

"Let's go hone now.i'm gonna take you home come on" i yawned and nodded he escorted me with his arms around my waist then i slid iniside his sports car.the next thing i new i was already in my bed and him sitting in the chair next to my bed his soft features makes me smile if only i could change him again into that kind of innosence i dont know why he still loves me when im so broken and he used to be whole but now he's not a tear fell from my eye

If only i could teach myself to love someone else and make my heart whole again i could've gave it to you.you deserve so much more Cale.You dont deserve me.i hate myself

"Im so sorry Cale" i touched his face with the back of my hand then his eyes opened a little and he smiled when he caught me

"You dont have to.i know its not your fault." He slightly pinched my cheeks i giggled.then silence

I snuggled in my comforter and i closed my eyes to savor the feeling...i cant sleep

"Cale."

"I know." He immediately stood up from the chair the lifted the side of the comforter then he snuggled himself in my bed then he wrapped his arms around me making his arms my pillow then i hugged him.

I felt comfortable again.the third man who could comfort me to bed is Cale first is my Dad then him and Cale.

I love Cale but only as a friend.its sad to say that only a few could tuck me into bed and comfort me and relax me but one of them died...one of them died....and i will once again cry because the first man i loved died.the man that i used to adored died.the man i used to kiss goodbye,smile at his heroine works,idolize his works.hugged me till i fall asleep.comfort me when i have bad dreams.feed me when im sick.support me when i feel insecure.is now gone and taken away by God

"It'll be fine Krista...everythings going to be alright" he sang me a song