Loving a Ghost

Chapter 10

I sat on the couch and turned the TV on, but I couldn't stop thinking about Joe!

On this couch we cuddled,

On this couch we slept,

On this couch we kissed,

On this couch we watched movies,

On this couch...

UGH!! why can't I just forget him?!

I rubbed my face to get rid of my thoughts, I decided to get some sleep so I went to my room and finally after a long time suffering I managed to get some sleep.

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I woke up the next morning, I opened my eyes slightly, I'm glad I could get some sleep.

I turned around and

"AHHHHHHHHH" I screamed

Guess Why ?

C'mon Guess!

Exactly! You guessed right..

He was here.

Why?

Why is he here? Why don't he just leave me alone?!!

"What are you doing here? You're sorry, I understand, Please leave" I said trying to control my anger.

He laughed again !! No, seriously! Is he some kind of a laughing Ghost ?!!

"You.. just.. don't.. get.. it, do.. ya..?" he said.

And beside my shock that he said a complete sentence -I mean they never say complete sentences, they always hardly say small words like

'love'

'hate'

'kill'

and stuff like that-

Anyways beside my surprise, I was so angry, so I lost it.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY 'YOUJUSTDONTGETITDOYA' HA? WHAT DO YOU MEAN!? OF COURSE I GET IT! I GET IT! I GET THAT I'M SO UNLUCKY! I GET THAT I'M SO MISERABLE! I GET THAT MY BOYFRIEND WHO IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE JUST DIED! I GET THAT HE GOT KILLED BY GOD KNOWS WHO OR WHAT! I GET THAT MY LIFE IS HELL! I GET THAT I CAN SEE FREAKING GHOSTS LIKE YOU! I GET THAT MY PARENTS DIED! I GET THAT I'M ALONE! I GET THAT I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE! I GET THAT I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT! I GET THAT I ALWAYS PRAY TO DIE! I GET THAT I'M SO PITIFUL! I GET THAT YOU'RE SORRY! I GET IT! I GET IT! I GET EVERYTHING! YOU HEAR ME! EVERYTHING! EVERY.FUCKING.THING!!" I said,

I said it all,

I said what was inside me,

I let my volcano erupt,

and trust me I felt relieved!

So relieved,

Just now have I realized that I'm not on my bed anymore and that I'm standing on the floor right in front of him! Did I jump when I was shouting?! But I could care less, cause now I realize what I've just did and said to that poor boy or Ghost..

He didn't mean to bother me right?

"I..I..I'm sorr-" I was just about to say when he interrupted me,

"D..on't!"

"Wh-"

"You.. should.. not be.. sorry.. you.. des.. dese.. deserve to live, I sh..should be sorry, I am s.. s.. so so.. sorry, p.. p.. pl.. please forgive.. me.." he said so softly and kindly -that my heart stopped beating for a second- and then he simply disappeared.

How can a Ghost be such a good soul..?

Is that another type? Is he not a ghost? But he looks like one..

Ugh I can't do this.

I threw myself on the bed, tired of thinking.

I'm not even going to think about what just happened..