The Beta (boyxboy) (Book One)

Part One

***A/N This is my first real attempt at an actual story, so sorry if it kinda sucks. This is the first book in a series but I'm still not really sure how many books there's gonna be for it. I'm gonna try to update at least twice a week, but maybe more depending on how I'm feeling. ANYWAY, I hope you enjoy it.***

*Jamie's PoV*

"You need to tell him." I looked over at River not even bothering to show a reaction to the same statement he made every single morning.The words rolled off his tongue so easy as if he didn't realize exactly what he was saying. "It's important."

I rolled my eyes before replying with an even tone, "It is, but it doesn't need to be done yet."

"Says the sub about to go into heat." He mumbled under his breath and I felt my face starting to warm as the words sank in.

I didn't bother replying to that at all, the whole idea of being in heat actually sent chills down my spine. Heat for us was a thing every sub experienced once every three months for 9 days, and is literally the most tortuous thing possible for those of us who aren't with our mates. Your entire body constantly felt like it was on fire,every single muscle ached, and you were hornier than you could ever even think possible, and moodier than you could even imagine.

The only thing that granted full relief was sex with your mate other than that though little things could make it a little better, like exercise, masturbation, cold showers, and this absolutely disgusting medicine. All of these were horrible options though. You felt like shit so exercising felt so out of the question. You could jerk it till your hand bled and still want more. Cold showers just aren't fun in the slightest. Then the medicine literally makes you throw up.I'm not even kidding, you have to basically drink nothing but this mix of I don't even know, and as soon as you finish the cup it comes right back up.

I hated how River would bring it up. He had no idea what it was like. River was the soon to be alpha of the pack, and his dominance was so strong his wolf was entirely black, which was something that almost never happened. His wolf terrified me; hell his human form terrified me. I glanced over at my cousin and took in his appearance.

Everything about him scared me starting with the fact that he was 5'10, which may not seem like a big deal to most but I'm literally sitting at about 5'2, and then his short black hair that hadn't changed since middle school, and his green eyes that could pierce my soul  with a single glance. Then the fact that he just oozed dominance and the only freaking reason I could be in the same mile radius as him without having an anxiety attack was because we were related.

That thought hit me a little harder each time it crossed my mind. I always felt so broken, I was supposed to be the packs next beta, and here I was, a doms dream sub. A completely white wolf, with anxiety so bad a human yelling could throw me into a panic attack half the time.I was supposed to stand next to River and help guide the RiverStone pack, and I couldn't even guide myself across the pack town without wanting to cry every time I see a dom.

In these sort of cases my mate would normally take over the position,but lucky me, my mates a human, meaning he couldn't. At least no one thought he could. The whole idea of humans and wolves mating was still pretty new to us. Not to mention the fact he was a he, and same sex mates were still pretty new too. I knew a lot of people looked at my situation and thought the pack was in a lot of trouble, but there really wasn't too much I could do about it.

"James,"River's voice broke my thoughts and I quickly realized we were sitting at the school already. "just promise me you'll try making progress soon." I just stared at him and he let out a soft sigh before leaning over the center consul and hugging me. "You're my cousin, my second in command, and one of my best friends. I want to see you happy, not struggling though a week of heat and tiptoeing with your words around the man you're supposed to spend the rest of your life with. Try. Please."

He pulled away from me and just waited for a response, but of course I just reached for the door handle, only to hear the lock click. I glanced over at him again and saw how serious he looked just staring back at me.

"I'll try." I slowly mumbled out as if the words were poison on my lips.He gave a light smile before unlocking the doors and stepping out. I always hated when he did stuff like this. He gets all personal and talks me into agreeing to things I don't want to, and then just walks away like nothing happened.

I watched as he walked to greet a few of the other pack members before turning and opening my own door to slowly slide out of and walk in the opposite direction. It wasn't that I didn't want to be around my pack, it was just that I couldn't handle it most of the time.Literally if someone wasn't a sub or a human, I practically couldn't breathe around them.

My feelings of not wanting to be around it in public were pretty widely respected, or at least they had been since seventh grade. I had been partnered with this asshole of a dom for this presentation thing, and he basically forced me to do the whole thing myself, and then refused to help present it. The day ended with me breaking down in front of my English class where I couldn't stop crying and actually threw up a bit too. Needless to say my dad and uncle laid into him pretty hard for it, and since then if I say I don't wanna do things, I don't normally have to.

It was something I thought about a lot though, honestly if Corey hadn't been in the same room I'm pretty sure I would have passed out.Corey is the next in line for third in command, and was also the only dom that didn't make me shake. A huge part of being the third in command was helping keep everyone emotionally stable. Their body was basically used as an emotional channel, and it sucked up some of the negative energy the subs feel and release it back into the world as positive energy. They can never take it all away, it just nulls it a lot. It wasn't solely their job to keep the peace, the alpha also helped, and their individual dom as well, but for the most part, it was up to the third.

Corey isn't even officially in the position yet so he really didn't have control over it yet, which was rather inconvenient for us because we were pretty close friends and it made me feel terrible. I was pretty much also in a constant state of stress, so when we were around each other he gets exhausted pretty fast.

"Jamie!"I jumped at the sound of Austin's voice and quickly whipped around to the direction it had come from. I gave a light wave as I waited for him to catch up.

Austin had been my best friend for as long as I could remember, he was only a year older than me at 17, and I swear there used to be a time I was taller than him. You wouldn't even guess it now seeing as he now stood at 5'9 and I only came up to about his chest. I watched as he came to a stop next to me and his black hair settled calmly around his hazel eyes and I couldn't help but smile at him.

"How'd you sleep?" He asked softly smiling down at me. In the middle of me explaining for the millionth time that I never slept well he flung his arm around my shoulder and the familiar tingles shot through my body as he set off towards our class. I could feel my pants tightening a little and quickly removed his arm from my shoulder, I always hated doing that, one because it seemed rude, but two because I absolutely loved the feel of him touching me.

Because not only was Austin my straight best friend, he was also my mate.