I laid on my back staring up at the ceiling, I can't sleep. I sat up and slipped on some black shorts and a black and white cropped top, I searched around for my white vans and found them. I walked out and grabbed my purse with my key card, wallet and phone. I got downstairs, I remember seeing a bar on my way out with Colby..I walked back in that direction and sure enough, it was there. When I pushed the door open I heard a faint sound of music, I walked towards it and pushed the door open. Music filled my ears and Paige me in, I smiled and walked to the Bartender "Strongest stuff you have" "Can you handle it?" He shouted over the music "I asked for it, didn't I?" Looking around I saw people everywhere, girls grinding on girls and boys, someone passed out on a couch "Here" I slid him the money and picked it up, the liquid was thick and it burned my throat. I finished it, then asked for another. Why I was in a bar this late, I don't know. It just feels right.I could feel the alcohol starting to take over, So I walked to the dance floor and started dancing. I felt hands on my hips and leaned back into him, we started to get close. His hands gripped my thighs and he lifted me up, I left the bar in his arms. Once we got to his hotel room, everything was hazy. He sloppily kissed me and the rest was a blur.
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The light stung my eyes and I grimaced, pushing my face further into the pillow. Which was very hard- my eyes shot open "Oh my god!" He woke up abruptly and I pushed myself off of him and on to the floor "Luna!?" "Joe!?" I yanked the covers off the bed to cover myself and he used the pillow to hide his junk, we stared at each other in disbelief. I cleared my throat "Did we.." "Yes,Obviously" I just had sex with my ex. Who is in a relationship. This isn't gonna end well "Are you upset about it?" He asked me as he slipped his boxers on "Yes. Because you're in a relationship" "But if I wasn't, would you be upset then?" "No" he bit his lips "Are you upset?" "No" so he does still have feelings for me. I got up and slipped on my bra and underwear "Luna, I'm sorry about the Hayley thing" "Joe, that was years ago, and we weren't together" "Doesn't matter" My eyebrows raised as he took my hand "I still want-" "Joe! I can't wait to tell you about my dinner last night!" His eyes shot over to me and I scrambled into the bathroom with my clothes in hand, then silently closed the door behind me. I sat still on the floor as they talked, I could barely make out what they were saying so I got on my knees and peeked through the key hole, he pushed his lips against hers and she backed him up till they fell on the bed. When both of their feet leave the floor I knew what was happening, I sat back against the door and put my head in my hands. Wow. He sweet talks me, then has sex with her knowing that I'm in the other room. I understand that, well, she is his girlfriend but.. I shook those thoughts out of my head and got dressed, then sat there for at least 30 mins on the floor listening to them. I could've just walked out there, but I didn't for some reason. Finally he mentioned he was hungry afterwards and she offered to go get him food "She left, you can come out" I slowly twisted the knob and pushed the door open as he was buttoning his jeans "Let's talk for a bit" "No, I'm leaving" I looked around for my purse and found it on the side of the bed "Luna, what's the matter with you?" I stopped dead in my tracks "You just asked me that question-?" "Yeah, I did. Not to long ago you were looking at me like I was your favorite person-" "Then you fucked someone else, after sweet talking me! You know how I feel about you, Joe!" "Well your feelings won't change the fact the Carmella is my girlfriend, not you" that stung.I clenched my jaw then pushed past him "Luna, at least stay a while longer" "Fuck you" I slammed the door behind me and walked down the hall, when I got to the elevator I started to cry. I guess it was finally starting to hit me, Joe moved on. It was only a college relationship to him, and here I am stuck on him. I need to let him go,saying it makes it sound a lot easier. But letting him go will be the actual challenge. The elevator got to my floor and I walked out, should I go see Colby? Definitely not like this. When i got to the room, Lexi was on the couch "Woah. You look rough" "Gee, Thanks" she chuckled and I sat next to her "Have you been crying?" "Yeah" "What is it-" the tears came again "I got drunk last night, like really drunk and ended going home with Joe" she raised her eyebrows "And you guys.." I nodded slowly as I wiped my eyes "Then Carmella came and I his in the bathroom, he had sex with her while I was right there" words couldn't describe how I felt in that moment, there is no pain worse than the pain you feel when you love someone you can't have
