You stared down at your phone blankly and sighed, too used to the feeling.
Joshua was busy with work– again.
"Was staying with you the best decision?" You whispered to yourself.
You closed your phone and placed it on the nightstand beside you as you slowly lifted the covers to your chest, staring at the ceiling.
This was tiring and you were sick of it. You're sick of waiting until the next morning to meet with his sleeping figure and then him having to leave four hours later. You rarely spent time with him and the dates that you planned were alwayspostponed.
Sighing once more, you closed your eyes and fell asleep.
You slowly opened your eyes and blinked slowly when you were met with Joshua's twinkling eyes that stared softly at you. Your eyes shot open as you sat up instantly, wiping your eyes and running your hand through your hair as you blinked rapidly. This isn't real... He's awake? Looking at me and not sleeping?
"Baby?"
You slowly looked over at Joshua's confused expression as he slowly sat up, sitting behind you. His hair was slightly messy but looked amazing on him.
You stiffened slightly when he slowly wrapped his arms around you from behind, pulling you a bit closer as he laid his head on your shoulder, his eyes closing.
"Good morning..." his sweet voice whispered.
You swallowed and placed your hands over his that were on your stomach.
"Joshua–"
"Let's go and wash up, hm? I'm going to make us some breakfast later," he interrupted you and smiled gently at you, raising his head back up as he stared at you with the most dazed and lovingexpression.
You slowly nodded and gasped when he suddenly picked you up bridal style after he stood up. He grinned at you and walked to the washroom.
After washing up, Joshua was making breakfast as you were sitting on the couch, your fingers gripping your phone.
You read over the texts that you and Joshua used to send and sighed. He had to leave in about 2 hours, and you were tired of never seeing him except in the mornings.
"Baby? Breakfast is done!"
You looked up and found Joshua grinning happily at you and bringing two plates of pancakes over to the little table in front of you. He set the plates down and pecked your cheek.
You blinked rapidly and opened your mouth slightly, "Jisoo-"
"Wait! I forgot the milk!" Joshua cutely tapped your nose before jogging over to the kitchen again.
You sighed softly and stared at the pancakes, your heart weakening as you re-thought. However, all those thoughts of keeping him as your boyfriend faded when reality hit you. This is the most time you've seen and interacted romantically with him in the last 2 months. You frowned.
"Here it is!"
You looked up at blinked as he placed the two cups of milk on the table before leaning in and kissing your lips sweetly.
"Josh-"
You blinked rapidly as he shoved a piece of pancake in your mouth. You slowly chewed and stared at him as he ate as well. He kept glancing at you and smiling softly.
You swallowed your food and opened your mouth again but was stopped by the glass of milk in front of your lips. You looked at Joshua confusingly but he just chuckled. You took the glass and slowly sipped the milk before putting it down and sighing.
"Jisoo..."
Joshua stiffened slightly and gulped, his eyes fixed on the table as you were staring at his side view.
"Jisoo," you sighed softly as there were no more interruptions, "Jisoo, can we talk?"
You saw him breathe out softly before a soft "no" escaped his lips.
"I– Wait, what?" you blinked.
Joshua looked over at you and pressed his lips together before softly whispering, "I said no."
You stared at him blankly before a small frown of confusion appeared on your face.
You felt his hands on yours as he slowly caressed your knuckles with his thumbs, "you can't... you can't break up with me."
You blinked in shock and stared at him as his eyes were on your hands. He raised your hand and slowly cupped your hand on his cheek, staring at you.
"Don't leave me..."
"H-How–"
"I heard you, Y/N... You were asking yourself if staying with me was the best choice..."
You widened your eyes, "b-but my phone was-"
"No it wasn't..." Joshua whispered, staring at you sadly, "why...? Y/N... I told you so many times that I have work and I'm so sorry for not being here with you."
You gulped before croaking out, "I just really miss you... It's so lonely without you and just to see you in the morning..."
Joshua softened as he nodded in understanding, "I miss you too... so much..." he whispered, cupping your cheeks as he smiled at you, "I promise... I'll make it up to you."
You sniffed and closed your eyes when he leaned in.
"I love you so much... Please understand that and know that it's not my fault that my boss is so mean."
Your lips cracked into a slight smile when he spoke and pressed his soft lips against yours.
