Is This Goodbye? >Ereri fanfiction<

5. Levi's Notebook

Day 1
There is something worse than having someone die on you. What if someone dear to you vanished into thin air? You wouldn't know if that person was alive or not. It hurts, it fucking does. You spend the whole time thinking about where he could be, is he thinking about you? Does he miss you? Is he okay? They say hope is a good thing,

Hope is killing me right now..

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Day 2
Ever since you have been missing I were a mess and I still am. It is sort off funny how everyone was shocked to see me cry when I got to hear that you were gone. I finally broke because of you kid, you happy now?

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Day 3
It surely has been a while since I've last seen your face, Eren. I miss you. I fucking miss everything about you, even your sloppy cleaning and even those never ending anger issues..

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Day 4
Eren I-..

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Day 5
I feel empty every second I'm not with you. It gets worse and I feel like dying. This pain of missing you is too much. What happened to you? Where did you go? These questions have haunted me for days Eren! When are you coming back? Will you get back?

Are you even alive..

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Day 6
Maybe when you finally come back and read this you wonder why I wrote all of this and didn't tell you myself, what if I'm dead by then? I want you to know I still care about you even though you have been missing for like a week now. Also, Hanji told me this could help me move on. I don't want to move on though Eren, I love you too much. Come back already... Please

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Day 7
Your face haunts me in my dreams, yet I love to see it. Your rosy cheeks, your lovely smile and I didn't even talk about your eyes yet.. Gorgeous jewels colored like honey mixed with the ocean. And your hair, soft and messy which suits you perfectly. I wish to see you again soon so I can adore your face in real life. I'm sick of this dream..

Why aren't you here?

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Day 8
I remember the first time I got to touch your body like that, so many details like it was carved by god himself. It was in the morning so the sun made your body shine. I wouldn't have cared if I died right there at that moment. Everything was so perfect,
It can be like that again, the only thing you have to do is to come back to me..

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Day 9
One of the moments I treasure most in my life is when I first told you that I love you. You wanted to run away from me but as soon as I said that you froze and looked at me in shock. I can still feel how hard my heart pounded at that moment. I thought you would run away, maybe even laugh, but out of all things you started to cry and ran up to me to hug me..

I cherish that moment deeply.

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"Eren, why are you crying?" I said as I brushed trough his gorgeous brown locks. I held him close to my chest, still afraid he would run from me. A small sigh left his slightly chapped lips before he spoke;

"I t-thought you'd never like me b-back." He sniffled. His grip on me tightened while he looked down to see my face. His eyes widened at seeing my smile and his cheeks flushed an adorable shade of pink.

"You should smile more heichou, it suits you."

Sorry for the short chapter, I tried to update as soon as I could and really worked hard on this ^-^

Maybe I'm even a little proud at this weird ass chapter?¿

Anyways, I hope this explained a little bit about what is going to happen! See you soon :*

-Gayaza // Ri