Neon Haze ︎︎// muke au

not an update

Ok I'm sorry this isn't an update but my mother taught me to let out my emotions before I kick the living shit out of someone

So this irrelevant, bright-green wig wearing ass bitch aka the fucking grinch that stole Christmas is literally getting on my fucking nerves

First of all she's being offensive to the alternative community by faking like she's an emo

IF U SAW HER YOU COULD TELL SHES A FUCKING LIE

LITERALLY NO ONE LIKES HER

SHES OFFENSIVE AS FUCK AND ANNOYING AS HELL

Lord please, don't make me pull that wig off and kick her to the moon in the name of Jesus

Anyway I was in my applied strings class (or practice period) and one of the seniors said something about a bright-green wig

As you know already it's the bitch I'm talking about

I swear I nearly died when the senior (let's say her name is Brenda ) said that the bright-green wig haired hoe irritated her soul

After that period was over it was time for regular orchestra class

So I pulled out my phone while we waited 10 minutes for the others to come

The grinch walks in and is saying "hi" to everyone in this really high-pitch squeaky voice

No one said hi back

Unfortunately she sits right beside me in the orchestra

I distracted myself by playing a game called "Cytus"

So she proceeds to talk about something that I knew nothing about and that's what people hate about her the most

She says the most irrelevant shit then expects people to know what she's talking about

THE THING THAT PISSES ME OFF THE MOST IS THAT THE FUCKING GRINCH THINKS SHE HAS THE NERVE TO GET MAD WHEN YOU HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT SHES TALKING ABOUT

NO ONE GIVES A BLOODY FUCK ABOUT WHATEVER THE HELL SHES SAYING

I need to calm down

Ok

So she starts talking about bands like a MCR and PTV and stuff

So I was trying to be nice to her by saying "those bands are cool"

Then she saw my earrings and asked where I got them from

I told her I got them from Claire's

I'm telling you that it took all my might not to slap the taste out her mouth when she said she didn't like Claire's because it was too pink

I respect everyone's opinion, but this wasn't the first time she dissed Claire's

I let it go like Elsa did in frozen and I picked up my violin and played loud as fuck

I was doing good until she said something that made the universe stop in its place

This is what she said, and I quote:

"Oh, you know that band you like? 5 seconds of summer? Yeah, they kind of sucks. Like, their not emo enough. They try to do covers on YouTube but they don't sound good."

...

It was literally so hard not to take my violin and hit her right in the face with it

It's one thing to constantly judge my style, the chockers I wear, the clothes I wear, the colour I paint my nails, the way I wear my hair etc

But when you come for 5sos

You fucked up

Here I was, trying to act all civilised and shit in the orchestra class and she almost got me kicked out of the country

Good thing the conductor was ready and I just played out my frustrations

I'll skip to the end of class and the part where I literally ended 2 peoples lives

So we're outside waiting for the bus

The grinch walks over and I tried to walk away but I couldn't

Keep in mind my friend (let's call him Kyle) was standing with me

So this guy I know that plays soccer (let's call him fuckboy)

He was listening to MCR

He saw my 5SOS phone case

Here's a quote from fuckboy:

"Oh, I think I stepped in shit. Oh, it was just 5SOS"

I was about to let it go but the grinch walked over and caused me to make a fucking scene out there

Here's what she said that set me off, and potentially got me suspended:

"I swear self-harming is the most stupidest thing ever. Like, I never done it but it just seems pointless. How can you bring a razor to your wrist like that? They need fucking help. Actually, they are literally scum bags and should just die the normal way."

The truth is, I've been battling with self-harm for a year now

I have cuts all over my wrist

I'm not sure what happened next

But all I really remember is pulling up my sleeves and saying something that made everyone go quiet

I was so mad that I forgot what I said but I could tell it hit a soft spot in the grinch and in fuckboy

The last thing I saw was the grinch crying and the fuckboy sank to the ground and rolled up in a ball

When my bus pulled up everyone was staring at me, some of them were shocked, others were smiling

Kyle texted me when I got on and said that I did a good job in standing up for myself

I wasn't going to let them disrespect me like that

I wasn't going to let the grinch disrespect all the people out here that fight for their lives every single day

This chapters getting long

That's all for now

Thanks to whoever reads this

- jen