A 5 SOS fanfic(slow Update)

chapter 29

A/N okay guys I've decided to pick back up writing this. If you haven't seen I went back and corrected somethings so no ones confused. In this chapter I'm going to add a little more tragedy  between the 5 SOS boys and the nerd girls. So on with the story.
Waking up was hard. What can you aspect I went to sleep at like what one this morning and its what eight in the morning. When I opened my eyes I noticed the bed next to me was empty on my right side but when I rolled over I was meet by something warm. Looking up I saw a sleeping Luke. He looked so much younger as he slept. His face relaxed for once as if all the stress could not get to him when he feel into the black abuse we humans call sleep. As if nun of the stress of being a pop star even existed and he was a normal teen like he was before he got in a band. I wish I had enjoyed my youth when I still had it. As I looked at his beautiful yet calm face I knew in my heart that I had feelings for more then just friends for him.The rays on Sun that shown down him made him look that of a angle. Maybe one day I could even grow to love this sleeping blond angle before me. I know society wouldn't accept our relation because of the two year gap and I dought  he'd feel the same way I do and actually understand it and act before it's too late.Pulling my hidden notebook out I begin to Wright
Dear journal,
I've been to the doctor three times and I've yet to tell the girls or our fans what the doctor found, two years ago, a small tumor in my brain. I think it's grown I can't remember how bad it is. The docs say it's fine if I start not remembering things it's perfectly normal. I have to tell them soon. I might tell them when there all awake. I better get up and cook the others breakfast.
Bye for now
-Ren
I quickly put my notebook back in it's hidden place and I quickly got up being careful not to wake the sleeping Luke, grabbed some clothing and got dressed in the closet with the doors closed. Once dressed I run down stairs and started cooking. I cooked waffles, pancakes,cupcakes, strawberry cheese cake,and eggs. I guess they all smelt the food because they all came running down the stairs to sit at there proper spots.
"Thank you Ren."the all said together and dug in.
"As long as you save me a peace of my strawberry cheesecake I'm good I said sitting down with a cup of coffee and toast.
"Ren you need to eat something besides toast,"Cry said putting down her fork
"I've already ate,"I said sipping my drink
"Ren we all know you've been skipping meals."Calum said looking at me as all talk at the table stopped
"I have my reasons now eat and I will explain once I've had my cake and you all have eaten,"I said looking away from them feeling a great feel of gilt and sadness take over me. All I want to do right now is curl up in a ball and die. I don't want to sadden them all with the ugly truth of this world. I've hidden this for two years from the girls and I know I shouldn't unload all of it on the boys who I barely know. Yet they all seem like family. I plan to video call all the boys mom's while I tell them. They should know to they've all become like my mom to me. Cal-pals mom is the blunt kind of mom.
Michaels mom is always making me laugh. He got his humor from her. Ashtons mom is the food Lord. She's always cooking and feeding us when we come over. Luke's mom is the affectionate one. She always hugging us and telling us how proud she is of us. The girls moms are all those combined. They all love us dearly. I just don't want the worst to happen and they reject me and I end up dying. I want the girls to not push me away and I don't want to die. They say it's better to die knowing you were loved and not hated.
Soon everyone was done eating and I had finished my cake I told all them to sit in the living room and be quite. My stomach felt all tight and it hurt with every shaky breath i sucked in. Once in the living room I called all there moms on Skype and they all answered.
"Guys I haven't been completely honest with you. You know how I've had regularly doc check ups. Well two years ago the doctor found a brain tumor and the doctor says it's getting bigger and I'm slowly forgetting things. The doctor says either I get it removed and loose some moter controls or let it grow and only have six more months to live."I said my voice cracking at the end and tears running down my face. When I told them they all tackled me in a hug and let me cry on all of there shoulders. A/N
There you guys go there it is. I cried writing this how do you feel. Ik cancer is a big deal and a lot of people in my family have cancer. If you have cancer any kind you are beautiful and strong. You will make it through it no matter what.
-Sissy