Unwanted Feelings

C H A P T E R 19

I just wanna thank you guys for all your comments!!! Its just I wanted to delete the last few chapters and rewrite because idk the way chase converted didn't make me satisfied. And I didn't like how I left a little plot hole with Adam. But I will NOT be deleting the story! I'll just maybe edit it after (:

Anyways, I got one specific comment that said something about chases feelings. So, that gave me the idea for this chapter enjoy.

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Chase's POV

Sometimes I wish I could just die. Just get away from this life, get away from my parents.

My parents. The ones who made me feel like a failure, like I wasn't meant to exist. Which I wasn't, it was by accident I'm here. That's all I am, an accident.

The thing that kept me a little alive was, well, the fear. What was going to come after death? Could the point of this world be nothing at all? How could we be the people who were blessed to live on this planet , for no reason at all?

Wasn't there something after death?

Growing up in an athiest family, I couldn't say these thoughts out loud. But they constantly swarmed my brain and I just, felt like a part of me was missing. Like I wasn't a complete person.

Then I met Sara.

The girl who got booty bumped onto the floor, and refused to let me help her up, who refused to look me in the eye.

And for some reason, I found that so damn attractive.

She was beautiful, her modesty, her manners, her humor. Don't take this the wrong way, because I find a million things perfect and beautiful about her, but her looks arent what come to mind first.

Although she did have the looks, mashallah. She was absolutely gorgeous. But inside, she was the type of gorgeous I've never seen before.

Then she showed me Islam, and gave me that English Quran. Lord, it was the most beautiful thing I've ever read. Sara gave me an example of what Islam really was, and I hope she gets endless blessings for that. I could say she saved me, but that'd be a little too cheesy. It was Allah who saved me, Allah who put her in my path, Allah who led me towards Him. Who led me towards Sara..

Honestly, all I really knew was..

I don't want her out of my life.

With highschool coming to a close, I wonder what the future had for us. Truth be told, I didn't have a crush on her. I didn't like her.

I was utterly in love with her.