Would You Dream Forever?

[13]

JANICE'S POV

I have a feeling that Kules can read my mind.

Kules looks at me sadly, saying," You can't do it."

"Do what?" I say, pretending to be clueless.

"Commit suicide." He says seriously.

I sigh. "Nothing's left for me now, right?"

"Yes there is." He pauses, looking at me straight in the eyes, pleading.

"Me."

I scoff. "You? You are only in my dream! You don't DO anything in the first place!"

The hurt in his eyes are obvious, but I continue shouting.

"So YOU technically DONT EVEN NEED ME!!" I shout.

I don't know where this attitude came from.

He looks at me, hurt and fear in his eyes, his features completely scared.

Then he looks down at the floor and walks off, head bent.

I don't know whether to feel remorse or not. I just slam head first into a tree, driven by my own anger.

***

I wake up clenching my fists. I inhale warm air, then realise that it must be around 5pm?

I don't really care anyway. Even if I skip school... it wouldn't affect my suicide mission.

Anyway, I decided to have a little walk around before I commit suicide. After all, after I die, I won't be able to see this beautiful place anymore.

And what I don't know, is that Riam is coming down the street.

I turn and see Riam dressed in a nice suit and tie, looking more handsome than I have ever seen him before, with his hair combed neatly.

My heart does a rocket launch. Could he have done this for me?

Then he lifts a hand, and I am about to lift mine in greeting too, but realise his eyes aren't on me.

I turn. Behind me is a girl who is waving vigorously at him, her arm about to be torn off its socket.

She's wearing a short-VERY SHORT- pink glitter dress, pink hat, pink shoes... AAARGH!!

I GIVE UP! She's a flamingo dumped in pink goo!

Then she walks over to Riam-my Riam- seductively and places her hands on his chest.

Ugh.

Then he says something to her which makes her look up at him with a pout, trying to be adorable.

Random girl trying to pout= Flamingo trying to frown.

Riam looks almost bored, but doesn't attempt to push away the girl that is trying to seduce him.

I wonder how I must look like right now.

I am standing frozen to the floor, glaring at the girl, feeling proud my Riam didn't give in.

Then Riam whispers something into her ear and she giggles.

All I see is red.

Then he holds her hand and walks off.

I glare at that stupid girl.

HOW DARE SHE??!
AND HOW DARE RIAM!!

He betrayed me for a prettier girl.

He would never do that.

My Riam... or her Riam.

I walk away, tearing, a thousand emotions swirling like a tornado.

Riam. I sink to my knees.

He would never betray me for a prettier girl right?

I mean, look at all the cheerleaders standing slack jawed at him, and they are practically wearing nothing at all.

When I wear a simple dress that I think suits me-coz shopping is my no. 1 enemy- he would go slack jawed.

Maybe he's faking.

Oh acres. Is he having an affair?

Considering everything, I am confident he has an affair.

All those feelings for me, down the toilet. Toilet? Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww.

Back to the point. He doesn't care about me, he's just playing with my feelings.

Fine.

I will give him what he deserves before I die.

I storm off, clenching my fists.

You will regret this.