Better Than I Know Myself (BENNY RODRIGUEZ) EDITING IN ACTION

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Vanessa POV

I woke up and I saw Benny in the side of my bed staring at me.

"Hey" I said stuffing my face into my pillow

"Are you okay " Benny asked while putting his hand in my hair

"I don't know " I said honestly

"Are you up for some visitors" Benny said getting up

"Yeah " I said

"Okay boys come in " Benny yell and suddenly all the boys came in and they all each have a gift

"After what happened yesterday, you seem out of it and the boys and me decide that today we just sit here and talk." Benny said shy

"Thanks guys now come here and sit here" I said and pat the bed.

Benny sat next to me. Small on my right side Squints,Yeah Yeah and DeNunez all sat like a triangle next to Smalls and others did the square but next to Benny.

"Thanks for doing this. It's really means a lot to me." I said looking around

"Don't worry about it Vanessa, so what should we do " Smalls asked looking around

"Wait is this a song " Ham said picking up a song sheet

"Yeah I was writing a song " I said grabbing the sheet

"It's called don't worry child" (not really mine) I said looking at the sheet

"Sing for us " Timmy said And Tommy repeat after them

"Not right now" I said shy

"Already then explain the song to us piece be piece " Bertram said

"Yeah Yeah do it" Yeah Yeah said

"Alright well the part There was a time
I used to look into my father's eyes. Which I wrote because I was told that when I was young I would stare at people and I wouldn't look away. I didn't mostly with my dad even now I sometimes do it" I said remembering the memories I would do it

"Really" Bertram said

"Yeah I guess I have fish eyes" I said and giggle

"Continue " Benny said

"In a happy home
I was a king, I had a golden throne. I wrote this because even though I got raise without a mom. I still was happy because I have my dad with me. Since I'm his baby girl. I was king and I mostly got everything I need or wanted." I said laughing because I was remembering at everything I ever got.

"Must be fun" Smalls said

"I didn't care what I got. I only care about is with who I use with it which was my dad." I said smiling

"I guess my best friend was always and will be my dad and also if you ever need a dad advice you could always go to my dad. He is good with advice" I said and all guys smile

"Good because most of us don't have a dad" Squints said

"Anyways back to the song" Timmy said And like always Tommy repeat

"But those days are gone,
Now the memory's on the wall. If you could look around you see a lot if pictures of me and my dad along with his two long term friends, Aaron and Nick " I said pointing at all the pictures I have on my walls

"Wow " Bertram said in wonder

"I hear the sounds
From the places where I was born. Which I sometimes do hear the sounds from back home" I said smiling

"Continue " Smalls said

"Upon the hill across the blue lake,
That's where I had my first heartbreak.
I still remember how it all changed. Which its kinda true but it's wasn't really on a hill. But it's was these blue staircase and we both were at the top of the staircase but I just kinda put it more interesting " I said honestly and by now Benny was not smiling but weird it out

"Was it Julio " Benny asked

"Yeah it was but that doesn't matter because I don't like him anymore."I said bumping my shoulder with his and he smile the one that could take your breath away

"Do you like anyone else" Smalls asked

"Actually I do" I said smirking

"Who" Benny asked

" Not your business" I said mocking him from the other day and he just roll his eyes playfully

"My father said,
"Don't you worry, don't you worry, child.
See heaven's got a plan for you.
Don't you worry, don't you worry now."
Yeah! Which he does every time I tell him that I'm having a bad day and he would said that and somehow the way he said it , calms me down." I said smiling

"He must be a great dad" Smalls said

"Yes he actually is but now I'm willing to share him with you" I said

"Thanks" Benny said

"Let continue my young ones" I said joking

"There was a time
I met a guy of a different kind.
And we ruled the world,
I thought I'd never lose him out of sight.
We were so young, I think of him now and then.
I still hear the songs reminding me of a friend. that is actually not my boyfriend but yet my only friend i made from Memorial. His name was Felix" I said looking down

"Where is he" Timmy said And Tommy repeat again

"He went to missing actually" I said tearing up

"How" Bertram said

"You don't have to answer that if you don't want to" Benny said rubbing my shoulder and Smalls did too

"Nah it's fine and he went missing after he wrote two lists. One said Who he wanted to kill and the other who he loves. So a teacher saw the list and after that he never was seen. And some said that he went to a mental hospital and other said he went to rehab" I said looking down

"That sucks" Bertram said sadly

"But before he went missing he gave me this bracelet and ring. He made the bracelet and it's was his purity ring but his finger was bigger than mine so I'm wearing as a necklace" I said while showing him I'm wearing them

"Thanks for tell us the songs meaning" Bertram said

"Yeah Yeah it's a good song " Yeah Yeah said

"Well thanks anyways let hang out" I said and for the rest of the day we would watch movies

And they kinda help me write a song but this songs it's about the group.