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Chapter 15

Kirsty's POV

As soon as we got in the house, Ethan carried Chloe bridal style because she fell asleep. I stopped myself from crying, holding Chelle's hand the whole time for strength. We entered the house and I sat on the couch, breathing heavily. He can't even look like me, he ignored me like I was just no one.

"We really have no idea on what's going on in his head right now but maybe we could talk later." Aaron said, rubbing my back. I felt numb and the only thing I was hearing was the slow beat of my heart, slowly shattering from the situation. We all heard the doors closed from upstairs that were followed by footsteps.

I couldn't look at him. I hated the fact that if he sees me, he would know how fucked up I was just because I made the mistake of falling in love with him. Yes, it was a mistake.

"How fucking dare you not tell me you shot his brother." Ethan threw a punch to Alex, causing Nate to pull him back but he struggled. Alex didn't fight back, I guess he just accepted his mistake.

"You know well that's not the thing we are supposed to deal with right now." Grayson stood up, looking at his brother intently. Ethan was losing his shit, I can see it in his eyes. I knew he didn't want to deal with it anymore so I stood up and wiped my tears away. I'm strong enough to do this.

"I can leave now right?" I asked, smiling sarcastically even when it was obvious that I just finished crying. He looked at and there was something different in his eyes.

"No." He said simply, locking his eyes into mine.
"I believe my job here is done." There was bitterness in my voice, it was pretty obvious.

"You guys talk." Grayson said as they walk out of the living room, leaving Ethan and I.
"What the fuck are you talking about?" He asked, tugging his hair in frustration.

"Chloe's back. That's what I'm talking about. They already told me everything!" I yelled, tears running down my face.

"You know I can't let you go. You know I can't." He stepped closer to me, his eyes looked really tired and I was too. I just want everything to end. I want my pain to end.

"Please Ethan." I shut my eyes, stepping back from him. I was afraid that I would give in when I feel his touch. "I forgive you for kidnapping me, for making me feel all of this. Just let me go." This was against my will but I didn't want anything to stop him from getting what he really wants.

"What?! Kirsty listen to yourself! You know damn well I can't let that happen!" He advanced towards me but I stepped back. I was too hurt that I feared to be near him. I knew I was emotionally wrecked.

"Kirsty, don't!" I froze as he had a hard and loud tone of his voice. A tear fell down on his cheek and I instantly wanted to wipe it away. We were in a tough situation and it was difficult for me to be like this towards him. But then again, he lied so it means he might've been unsure of what he feels.

"Just don't." He whispered, walking towards me and claiming my lips. I couldn't resist his lips so I kissed back as he pinned me against the wall, deepening the kiss. It felt so painful, it's felt like this kiss was full of love yet full of anger and sadness.

"E-Ethan?" He pulled away, looking at me and releasing a deep sigh. I smiled sarcastically at him, caressing his cheek and giving him a quick peck.

"It's now or never." I whispered to him, wishing he got what I meant and he would choose me immediately. He couldn't answer me but his eyes were begging me to stay. He should know that I wouldn't be able to stand seeing them even just in one room.

Knowing that he couldn't choose already told me that I lost this fight, that I lost Ethan and I didn't even get to tell him that I love him. I sighed and walked past by him, wiping my teas away.

"Kirsty.." He called but I ignored him. I knew there was something to this kiss, it was the last one. I walked up my room and grabbed all the clothes I can and stuffed it in the duffle bag I found in the closet. Even this bag was Ethan's and it was breaking me. A grabbed a bunch of cash I saw as well and shoved it in the bag. Fuck it, I'm in Kansas and thousands miles away from LA so I had to get these. I couldn't help but sob as I rushed down stairs only to find Grayson and Ethan by the door.

"Kirsty don't do this." Grayson warned me by the way he was looking at but I ignored it. As I was about to open the door, I felt someone grab my wrist, only to face Ethan. He didn't bother wiping his tears, I didn't understand why because he couldn't even choose me. So what is he crying about? Is playing with my feelings?

"Kirsty, one last fucking time. Don't do this." Ethan said.
"This will be the last time, because I'm going." I spat, looking directly to his eyes.
"Tell me, have you learned to love me?" He asked with a soft voice. I paused, sighed and faced him where our faces were only an inch apart.
"I shot Johnson, didn't I?" He bit his lip and I no longer waited for his response. I called a cab and got in. I swear I felt like he was chasing me but when I looked back..

No one was there.