Scars

Epilogue

So what became of me and Colton? We got married that summer and had a beautiful wedding. I was so nervous “Hollie you look stunning.” Schyler told me as she spun me around in the dress. Schyler was my maid of honor. “Thanks Schyler.” I smiled as she smiled back. My best friend Skylar Laine walked in “Hollie you look the most beautiful I’ve ever seen you.” She smiled. It felt good to hear that. “Thanks Skylar.” I smiled. Schyler and Skylar were the only two people who I felt knew me. My family had long abandoned me. I know my dad wouldn’t walk me down the aisle, so Mr. Dixon offered to do so which made me feel so good. “Well I'm going to be your father in law so it seems like the right thing to do.” He smiled as I made my way down the aisle. “Hollie don’t be nervous.” He told me noticing my shaking “I'm just excited to see Colton now…I haven’t seen him in a day.” I laughed. Colton and I were used to spending everyday together. He laughed a bit too “Well that will be the last day you have to spend apart.” He smiled as I approached Colton who smiled at me as I made my way to him. Once I got up there he whispered in my ear “You look so beautiful baby.” “Thanks.” I smiled. The wedding began and soon we were Mr. and Mrs. Michael Colton Dixon.

Colton surprised me with tickets to London for our honeymoon the next morning which I was thrilled with. The night before we had fallen fast asleep since it was late for Colton to be out and I was too excited to sleep the night before. We flew to London and had an amazing time on the first day visiting all the things there. Soon it was night time which of course was the time I had been waiting for since I fell for Colton. We kissed and he pinned me against the wall like last time. “Are you nervous?” I asked him. “A little…” he admitted. “Baby don’t be. I'm less nervous since I have a say in this…” I said honestly. He kissed me. “If I'm hurting you, promise me you’ll let me know okay?” he said. I nodded. “Is this your first time?” I asked expecting a yes. “Actually it’s not…” he said bashfully. “Ooooh” I smirked “Bad Colton.” He laughed at me “You’re such a dork Hollie.” “Who was your first?” “Baylie. I felt awful after but what happened was she begged me to. She kept crying saying that I didn’t love her and that I wouldn’t care if she left. I mean she really was in bad shape Hollie. Everytime I said no she thought I didn’t love her. Everytime I said no she cut herself more. I was scared I would lose her if I didn’t sleep with her. As much as it was against everything I believed in, she was just everything to me.” He sighed. I hugged him “Baby. I understand that. I would never have thought you would do it otherwise.” He smiled at me “Thank you for never doing that to me by the way…as much as I loved Baylie then I just had such a bad conscious either way.” 

I felt awful for him yet I could understand where Baylie came from. There would have been a time where I would’ve felt like her. But after I got away from Michael I just didn’t. We returned to our make-out session which then turned into more. We soon had all clothes on the ground. Of course I was scared of what comments he might say about me. “You’re seriously perfect Hollie…” he said smiling down at me. “You don’t think I'm Boobless and shapeless?” I asked. “Noooo. Hollie your body is perfect just like you. I know because of him you’re always never going to believe me but trust me Hollie he was crazy.” I kissed him with even more passion hearing this.  This was the reassurance I needed for the longest time. My scars were mostly faded all over my body. Colton of course frowned everytime he saw one feeling terrible. “They’re all from before I met you.” I said honestly. “I know….I could tell.” He sighed. 

Things actually started to get heated between us. It did hurt a little but I wasn’t going to complain. The first time all I had been focusing on was how this wasn’t happening to me and it was all a dream. “You okay.” He smiled “Fine.” I smiled back. We fell more in love with each other than ever before and I loved it.

We had a few children and now I'm glad I have suffered through everything to get to him. All the scars I got. Every remark I suffered through. Any little pain that occurred in my life was worth it because I found Colton Dixon who saved me from myself.